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heys all!

first of... I'm so so sorry I haven't been updating.. especially friends who've been complaining at my negligence.

Well... prelims are over.. and sometimes I wonder whether I studied anything at all... 

annoyingly, We only get our results back like one piece at a time.. and I'm getting a heart attack about my Human geog.

It's depressing. What I studies hard for... I FAILED. but.. surprisingly.. Lit is ok.. so far at least. And I didn't study for that. weird much.

I really believe there's something about the feng shui this year.. 

It's not a good year for those born in the year of the horses.. And apparently, it's hard to focus, concentrate etc. I believe in it, those some may be skeptical about it, but it's my choice so i believe =P

Sometimes... seeing people around me happily attached and having such a sweet partner to go to and rely on causes something in me to feel hollow, empty, a gut twisting feeling.. Really makes you wonder.. what you are missing out...

Well, I recently joined fitness first and got a personal trainer.. and I guess it's unusual for someone my age to get one.. haha.. Liesel said the only people she's heard getting personal trainers are either overweight or much older and unfit.. 

Now... I'm wondering what my purpose of getting a personal trainer is.. I thought it was actually for looking good during grad night. Well, that is a goal, but it's only part of the reason I realized.. It's not so simple I guess.. When you've been fat and ugly before, looking good adds a hell lot of confidence... I mean.. I've always known that I'm not that confident of the way I look, especially since I was so fat in primary school and got called 'fatty'. Though those days are thankfully over, I guess that it did something to my self confidence..

I want a trainer to whip me into shape, so that I have no qualms about how I look. Its something to do with looking good to feel good..

I know a lot of people think I am confident of myself... Of my abilities yes, definitely, but.. sometimes, I get easily intimidated, I just choose not to show it.. oh well.

I can't help but sometimes wonder.. With couples all around me getting attached, why I haven't met a guy I like and likes me back. I'm not gonna say what's wrong with me because I know my friends will kill me, but sometimes it just feels that way. ahh... 

haha, ok, on a side note... There's this really cute guy at the gym.. I don't know why I feel somewhat attracted to him... There are loads of guys with good built good looks and all that there but he just captured my attention immediately when I walked into the gym the first time, but I wasn't really affected by the other guys. Weird how things work that way.. oh well... hehe=) 

oh yes... I finally went kayaking again!! Hehe.. and got a tan =DD I really really miss having a tan and I like how I look! yayness! Went with gew and kit.. and kayaked on singles.. ugh.. gew! you said you'd kayak doubles with me!!!!! My arms were so tired.. though we didn't travel far.. hahahaha... we were against the tide, so... yeah.. but the way back was only half and hour compared to one and a half hour we took getting to the place before turning back.. lunch at sea =) oh how i miss the feeling of being out in the open sea and bobbing around in the water.. If only I can find out what's wrong with my technique, ugh. I kayak so slowly!

I AM ACHING. BADLY. But feels 'shiok' to a certain extent, feels good to know I worked my butt off... hehe. hopefully will see results soon!!

and yes.. amazing how some people have the ability to brighten up your day with simple gestures.. hehe =) go figure =P

I shall add photos another time... nothing much to add though...

byeeeeeee!

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Hi all! I finally added the China post, and it's below cause it was saved as draft =D Currently, I'm HOOKED onto smallville! Tom Welling is so Hot! and Kristen Kreuk is beautiful... they make such a lovely couple! hehe... I've finally managed to tear myself away from it cause it's time to get studying and I'm only done with season 2. I had no idea the series isn't done yet! I have up to season 6, but season 7 is already out and season 8 is on it's way. LONG time to go... haha.. read the brief summary.. sounds like it's gonna get a lot more complicated along the way. 

Yes, today... woke at 6am to send claudyne off to Canberra =( First time I'm the first oacian to reach =P I'm gonna miss you CLAUDYNE! boo.. Take care yeah.. Victor was a little too late to send her off.. by like 5 mins.. then we went to T2 to have Macs with M lim and his wife, April. I'll add photos another day. My eyes are burning... nights!!

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ahh.. the voice they always choose for Prince Charming in all the Barbie movies are so... how do you say it? It just makes me melt... aww.... it's so... hot, sexy, charming, gentle and sweet all at once.. hehe =) imagine falling in love with a voice! I love fairytales.. everything's so sweet and charming!! *sighhhh* haha.. ok random... I just packed my room! it's neat now!! really =P left with packing my school work... heh.. needed to relax after packing so I watch the Barbie movie, Barbie as Island Princess.. It's nice! really? haha.. So what if it's childish? =D ok, good night!!!*

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Heys all! so sorry for the late update, but here's my china trip photos! =D

My dad and I checked in really early, so we had time inside to go to the KrisFlyer lounge because he is a KrisFlyer member(travel real often, so get perks), and I had my first taste of sparkling water... not that fantastic.. give me normal water anyday!

My midnight snack at the lounge =))

The rather empty lounge.. This was the gold lounge cause my dad used his points to redeem a Business flight seat to China! =D

As I was sitting business class, I didn't really sleep much.. hehe... Can't really remember the name of this cocktail.. but it was yummy! And the service was really good.. Kept calling me Miss Loh, I felt so pampered and quite shy sometimes.. Almost everyone had like one row each to themselves, so I shifted into the middle seat and had an empty seat on each side of me! so cool =)

Yes. This is my day 1 shopping's most expensive item.. and the coolest watch I've ever had!! haha... there are black crystals surrounding the face, and the leather strap is red.. it's so hot!! red and black are such sexy colours! (Flamenco =P)

This is the range on promotion... Each colour and girl symbolizes a different personality, I love these kinda things! But this is too.. bling bling..

We had a yummy dinner just opposite my dad's apartment at the shopping centre.. It's this mini-steamboat concept, each person has one pot each, with your own choice of soup. Then, there are a great array of different sauces and dips, all really really tasty! so it's up to you to mix and match your favourite. Then you order the meat stuff and then cook and eat! yummm.

Haha.. I love the rose petals...

My dad and his driver/friend at the Kbox!

My dad and I at Kbox. Lol.. the previous photos he took with me were so boring, he didn't even smile, so he agreed to make a funny face with me this round, HAHA!

The bottles of bacardi.. I love the spotlight effect =D

My dad's water company.. It's a factory in Suzhou industrial park.. He insisted I take this photo.

This is the view of Suzhou Industrial Park from the window of my dad's office. Just look at the pollution. tsk. tsk.

Ha! water filtration tank! I was sort dressed to sleep on the car so yeah.

He finally gets to show me his factory, the last time i went in Dec 07, I was too sick in the car, and it was freeezzzinngg... Winter =P I honestly love the cold weather, but not when I'm sick, and not when I don't get to shop for summer clothes which i finally got to do this time!!!!!

Yes, fooling around in the car and in the office because I was so so bored. Spent around 2 hrs travelling from Shanghai to Suzhou, and spent around 5-6 hrs in Suzhou, then spent another 2hrs plus going back to Shanghai.. there's only so much sleeping to be done, I can't read on the car sadly or i'll get carsick, and music gets boring. Camwhoring never does =D lol!

My dad has a WALK IN WARDROBE. I want one!!! And a big full length mirror! ok, that I have, but the walk in wardrobe!! he's a guy!! I want one =P So I spent some time at night trying on the new stuff I bought, and my dad ask me to take photo and show him instead of fashion parading it downstairs like i normally would cause we had 'company'. Btw, I think green is my all time favourite new colour. Emerald green though, like our G3ek shirt (class tee)! I realized I really like Diva's accessories... the style is the kind I love! but it's only worth buying if the stuff's on sale.. like $3 - $6.. won't pay for a lot for accessories... I keep changing!

THIS. is beautiful yes? haha.. from the airplane on the way back.. awesomely breathtaking... No pollution =D unlike the air I saw in the last few days in Shanghai. No wonder the athletes for the olympics do not want to go there any earlier than they have to.. 

CUTE! The mini versions of the Salvatore Ferragamo perfume range.. my fav is incanto heaven=) it's really really like heaven..... sighhh......

and this! is my newly packed dresser! neat? say yes =D Bought the earrings stand from a shop, and came back to realize my mum had one too, and it had more slots and nicer design.. so my mum swapped hers with mine, so sweet =) she also bought it from China, but at a warehouse.. I wanna go China w my mum again, she knows all the best shopping places and she knows what I like to buy! My dad's getting there.. slowly.. better than nothing =) My mum gave me an extra jewellery stand, like a carousal! can see?? hehe, i hung all my necklaces on them =D

All in all, i really enjoyed the trip, not just cause of the shopping, but also cause I got to enjoy spending time and talking with my dad, and get the feeling of how it's like to live with him again, it was fun =D

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HII!! Greetings from China =) haha.. I've taken a lot of photos, but am at my dad's office now, so I can't exactly upload my photos... So far.. it's been a lot of shopping, went clubbing and kbox with my dad and his friends, and met his girlfriend. yup. I shall comment on that later.. not while I'm here.. hmm...

The air here is really polluted. I took photos of buildings in the distance looking hazy, but I can't really figure out whether it's due to haze, mist or whatever it may be.. The weather here is rather eratic.. It's monsoon seasons if I'm not wrong, the transition between spring and summer. Hmm.. But I'm not sure. My dad's friend just said it was very unstable weather, and it made me think immediately of the lapse rate theories. lol. Not gonna think too much about it till I can refer to my books=)

hm............ i'm bored............. no one online now to talk to me.. I was also considering making my blog private to those given access only... then... i can write more stuff... ok.. nothing much to blog about.. It's not that interesting i know... I'm sorry.. haha... The update on the next post will be more interesting!

On a side note, I miss my mum and grandma...

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hehe... I'm flying off to China tomorrow night!!!! =D or should i say tonight since it's already 2.30 am? hehe...

I went to watch Get Smart today with kit, ahahahha.. hilarious!!! good movie, really good =)

Then met manda, sam and liesel for shopping! I want sunglasses... but couldn't find nice ones... I might consider buying the relatively ok $18 one... not too bad... but.. lazy to go tmr. lol! we'll see when I come back...

I bought a nice necklace! Diva is having sale at the orchard cineleisure branch. omg.. nice and cheap for once!! I love Diva accessories.. but too ex... normally... hehehe!! picture of one necklace below =)

Yes.. I went back for Jazz again.. During warm up (at least 30mins), my sweat was already dripping!! And the combination was HARD. they have been learning it for weeks! Hard to catch up! Can follow.. but didn't feel good cause can't dance it as well as I'd like to. So i video-ed it down.. practice =) so by next week can dance it!! It felt AWESOME to get back to dance.. I shall no longer miss the classes!!! hehehe.

I love this pendant!! hee

Ok... most probably won't be updating till next tues when I come back, unless I can use my dad's laptop.. hmm.. maybe! hehe.. byee!!

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JCTs are OVER!! *Rejoice* wahahaha!

I'm so so happy and relieved... no more stress for awhile=) look forward to the 2 days of relaxing before going off to China! hehe =D

Went for dinner with Jane and then we went shopping!! At parkway.. didn't have enough time to study.. Oh yes, we stopped by Syak's house to visit her cause she had high fever.. Get well soon babes!! And to the rest who haven't finished JCTs, goodluck!! only one or two more days!!! jia you!

Hmm.. just finished watching atonement.. Wow. Really shows how one little lie could affect and destroy the lives of others.. And the price you pay is that you live with that guilt for your entire life. My goodness. I never want to live with that kind of gut-wrenching guilt. It'll be torturous!

Well.. shopping therapy was awesome! Jane and I bought the same black spaghetti and grey jacket.. for like $12 in total!! so below =D

Haha... The PJs i wanted to buy... cute right? the polka dots!!!

I like this butterfly top... but its too big =( and no more size... leather straps!! so unique.. 

oh well...

Jane and I in the changing room, lol! This is the grey top and black spaghetti strap we bought! =D

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hello =)

haha.. kit was just so sweet! he bought me a slice of cake from cartel and brought it to my place.. hehe so touched... just what I was craving for! I'm so lucky! =DD

Exams = dead. haha.

Today's geog and econs paper brain drained me. I'm so sure tomorrow's will be even worse. KI... which i will have nothing to write about, and will most probably spend the time writing nonsense. oh no. =S feel bad...

Maths... I've been practicing for Stats.. so I'm hoping to pass.. tht's all I ask for.. pass.. haha.. I think my JCT results are going to be a wake up call...

I seriously need to get something done about the stupid headaches. 

2hrs of tuition... watch movie.. relief from thinking.. haha... tired now... 

Sorry, I know it's very fragmented.. my thoughts are fragmented. I feel like I'm just flitting through today. Rather emotionless.. really. zz. ok.. time to go and get ready for exam tmr. Good luck to myself -.- ha. bye!

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I've been thinking about this question for the last few days... What is it like to love a guy, and be loved back too? How does love even feel like?

Almost everyone comes up with criteria of what their ideal companion will be like.. but most realize that when they get attached, the guy or girl is usually different from what they envisioned. Your head tells you one thing, but your heart tells you another.. So should you follow your head or your heart? I think it's easier to control your head.. but it's so so difficult to control your heart.. Haha.. pride and prejudice huh? I guess the best way to happiness really is the moderation of desire with judgement. 

I've been thinking... all my life, I never had someone whom I really love, and I know love me back.. And I see my friends getting attached, happy etc.. Is what they are experiencing called love? I always think that I want to keep my first kiss and holding hands etc for that special guy, and that the right guy will come along. I know I love to love. Sometimes causing my own downfall I guess. I give too willingly, too obviously, too emotionally.. But I realized through every tough experience, I learn so much from it. It hurts real bad everytime.. But I know when the right guy comes along, and I know what to do from the experiences, it'll be worth it. Or at least I tell myself it'll be worth it.. I want to know how it is like to love someone so much that your heart feels like it's bursting, and seeing him makes your heart skip a beat. I guess I will in time. Sigh. 

After reflecting on this year.. I think I was a idiot. I didn't stop to think at all about what I was doing. Regretting now is too late, what's done is done.. But then I realize, I don't regret a single thing.. I was happy, I really was, and the memories of it will always be nice, no matter how much time has passed. Sentimental? Emotional? whatever you call it. I treasure memories, sweet things and thoughtful actions of my friends a lot! I have a whole box, of tiny notes, messages and cards from my friends ever since I was young. Each piece of paper holds a tiny memory of a wonderful time spent together. Even if the time was a painful one, it has still contributed to making me who I am today, and I believe that makes it an extremely important and precious thing to be treasured. 

I read something yesterday, and it really bothered me... I saw something today, that added onto that bothering in my head. But thanks to Jane, Syak and Dims.. I'm fine now =D thanks babes!! I've really got to section my heart and my head. Will have to learn. Sigh. Why am I a kind of person who is so affected by feelings? I always felt that when my heart is light, anything can happen as long as I know that the person I like is there for me.. But when that person is not, things just seem bleak. 

I believe in true love. I believe it exists. And to me, I think it is the most powerful force on earth, that links everyone from around the globe together. Love has a power to make impossible things become a reality. I think love is so beautiful, and transcendental. Sadly, love is also a game. I never want love to be a game, but, it inevitably will become one i think. Unless I find a guy who really loves me unconditionally. Wow, how amazing it will be to have someone to love you no matter what, to love you even when you're being an *ss, and will let you know and bring you back down to earth and wake you up back to reality. To have someone to love you more than you love yourself. That's really something. Of course, it'll only be nice if you love him back just as much. 

Thinking about this in a larger picture, I feel consoled. I do. For now, I'll just wait for that someone to show. Haha... I guess everything else.. will be a process of learning.. Just that from what I just learnt, I do hope.. that someday we'll be comfortable with each other again, and be able to talk like good friends do, like before. oh wells.. lala.. 

heh, sorry for the rambling, just needed to release =)

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I'm so distracted and I can't study! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

haven't studied all day cause of headache and now no mood to study and tmr's lit.! zz.. 

die. 

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hello.. 

Today was Physical Geog JCTs. bah. I doubt I can do as well as I wanted to. I'm sure that for the DRQ, i'm gonna lose marks here and there, especially for the Hydrology section.. 

Guess what?? I bought my new camera!! hehe!

see?? And I decorated it with nail art stickers so now it's really pretty! haha.. I love the quality! Started taking so many random photos.. that look so so nice =D

Hmm... after celebrating Liesel's Birthday and Kai Sheng's homecoming... which reminds me, the pictures are here!

All 8 girls!

The few of us sitting in Song Xi's Van going to Wine Connection =)

Our group shot at wine connection, my family! =D

After that night I realized that I didn't go out at all, except on Sunday to suntec to the IT fair to get my new camera=)) 

Seems like a lot of time has past.. but actually... not really.. but my brain's rejecting the idea of studying anymore.. Just when JCTs are round the corner =S bad. bad. bad. My mum just came back and bought me a super nice perfume! Icanto Heaven by Salvatore Ferragamos. However you spell it, hehe!!

The bottle is SO pretty don't you think? hehe! ♥♥♥

I guess the return of the horrible headache does NOT help anything.. it started coming back on Monday.. and it's lasting till now.. and ALL the medicine that used to help in the past, does NOT help at all now.. horrible horrible. Tomorrow is my Lit paper4 and I havent done anything since I finished the geog paper just now. Which reminds me.. I wrote 7pages long... haha.. 14 sides... My goal by Prelims.. would be to write 10 pages or 20 sides long.. I think that's at least I think, for a good A grade paper.. That's easy for Physical geog.. Human is another story..

I'll just take JCTs as a gauge of how well I know what I studied.. Lit and Physical Geog.. and Statistics for maths I guess.. Econs and KI is pretty much dead. Have to work much harder after JCTs.. everyday study. zzz. For now, I just want JCTs to be OVER...

One thing to look forward to... batch gathering on Saturday!!!! =D=D=D=D=D=D=D who cares about studies when you have that? ♥

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bah. yes i know i haven't updated in awhile.. I've had a rather nice holiday break I must say... seriously at the expense of my studies.. The weekend after my last post was the oac june camp.. I'm not going to elaborate anything here as it is confidential information that the subsequent junior batches cannot find out.. but let's say.. I was honestly disappointed. Really. At some points in time shocked, at some points in time, I seriously had to control myself to NOT say anything. I guess it's all part and parcel of learning to be a senior, and not an oac instructor anymore. Also heard news during the camp that handover will be in march. wth. What about Titans?!?! I guess people who know me already know what I've been complaining about, and thank goodness this is my last year in TJC. Thank goodness. Another motivation to study very hard, not get any chance at all to retain. Lol. ok, not very funny but still. 

The next week... Oh right... I fell sick. haha.. slept, slacked.. studied only around 4 hours a day.. not sure what I was doing but I know I watched a lot of TV and surfed the net a lot.. Sunday, 8th, we went to receive Kai Sheng from the airport! Haha, he's back from taiwan for 2 weeks! 

Then... this week was spent mugging. Haha.. about 10 hrs a day. AND, I only finished atmosphere, without global warming =( and maths i guess... I'm so not going to finish studying in time for JCTs...!

Yesterday was a lot a lot of fun though.. Finally, in dunno how many many months, the whole 0506 batch gathered together again =D It felt so so nice! but.. at the same time.. it felt.. very different.. heh.. not gonna elaborate.. let's just say I had mixed feelings.. I conclude that I don't really like wine very much. Compared to rum, bacardi, vodka, martini etc.. ee.. really dun like and cannot take it.. I was having a headache by the 3rd glass.. 

Now... I dunno how I feel. I am confused. seriously. About something that hasn't bothered me in quite a long time.. few months, and now it's back again. Argh I'm so messed up. =( I guess I won't think about it too much now, after all what's most important is the A levels this year.. there'll be time for everything else after this. I just hope it's not too late. Was feeling quite sad and down on thursday after JTS w delta hc.. I dunno why I was suddenly like tht, but I guess I just had a bad day.. oh well.. gotta get back to studying.. I'll update more interesting stuff next time... I'm getting a new camera!! =D

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haha.. today was a productive day! studied from 9.30am to 1pm, then from 2pm to 4.30pm.. ok i guess.. 6 hours.. finally finished hydrology! well.. I enjoyed yesterday better though.. I read a book called "The Templar Legacy" by Steve Berry. I love those kind of books! 

This book was about the controversies in the bible in the New Testament. The arguments and debates are the same as those the academics are making and I find it really interesting! In the books, apparently, the Knights are guarding Jesus's bones, that shows that he was not resurrected. Obviously this is fictional, but there are possibilities that it could be true! I'll put some quotations to illustrate what I mean =)

There are 4 different books in the New Testament, and apparently, the accounts of Jesus's crucifixion and resurrection all differ slightly,  thus, makes it so questionable. The discovery of the Gnostic Gospels also seem to support the theory held by the book. 

In everything we consider, there's always the language dilemma. "The Old Testament was written in Hebrew. The New was penned in Greek, and any source materials, if they even existed, would have been in Aramaic. Then there's the issue of the sources themselves." Once something is open to interpretation or translation, it more or less immediately looses its objectivity.

In the accounts of the resurrection,  "Each Gospel has a different version of who went to the tomb, what was found there - even the days of the week are unclear. And as to Jesus's appearance after the resurrection - none of the accounts agree on any point." It also states that "Whenever a problem exists with biblical texts, the solution is easy. It's faith." 

I loved reading this book because I myself have read about these controversies and thought about stuff like that. In the book, the 'truth' is revealed through Simon Peter's testament(which in reality does not exist, but I think reflects the author's thoughts and opinions on this matter), and I honestly have to say I seem to believe that account of it. I always wondered whether the man Jesus was actually a normal man, that was an enlightened being, but not one that could do miracles, but give people the strength to cure themselves, and give them the strength to renew themselves. I wonder whether these instances were elevated to become miracles, for religious purposes. One thing suggested was that the resurrection was actually actually a spiritual, not religious one. 

I do believe a God exists, and I do believe in religion, but not in any one general particular one, but I appreciate the whole idea of religion as a guide to living a good life, a proper one. And from all that I know of religion, every religion seems to do that one thing, give people strength to carry on, give people a suggestion of what the best way to live life is, how to be a good person, and tries to explain what reality and self is. They all seem to do it in different ways, but to me, they're all different routes to the same goal! =D I know religion comforts me and calms me down though, and thus I am not a skeptic! I watched a documentary, and the academics who specialize in these Christian controversies, are all believers of Christ, but say that questioning of the Truth is what makes it challenging. 

hehe.. just a little something I wanted to share, hope it's not too wth-ing. I think controversies, especially religious ones are really interesting!! I wanna read another book.. But I need to study =( boo.. ok.. gotta go and study again soon.. and I need to exercise!! eating too much. lol.. bye!!*

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sigh.. term 2 is finally over.. I'm really sad!! it marks the end of all interesting activities and marks the beginning of the long road to mugging for A levels. bah. 

oh! titans i got 10th.. im not happy, I'm relieved. haha.. should have trained for it but oh well.. too late, i'm just glad i pushed myself! and oh no my muscles seem to be building.. tone down time!!

Now that things have simmered down.. I really have had the time to think.. and.. I know what I want for some stuff already. I just wish I can turn back the time and have things as they were. I feel like it's all my fault that things turned out the way they did. What was i thinking.. I just want to talk. And clarify some stuff.. Hope I get the chance to do that soon cause it's really bugging and bothering me! Must study with a clear mind.. seriously... 

JCTs.. I don't think I'm ready for it. I'll just do my best, but not mug 24/7 cause if not i'll burn out. Can't do that before the A levels! But its saddening now.. no study partner =( ahh.. lol.. I miss studying with 0607!!!!!!! I think studying alone everyday will be so super boring. boo. I wanna study in school cause I can concentrate there, but there's no one to study with tmr!! bored...

lol, I asked gew to come over and accompany me in the oac room today and to just chat and have dinner.. I seriously needed someone to talk to, so thank goodness he came and made me feel better =) I went home to watch disney channel too and that helped! Now... back to mugging.. oh well... I hope things get better soon. I hate this feeling..

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well.. yesterday marked the beginning of Titans 2008, individual events!! I was so scared the night before that I couldn't sleep properly.. Then I went to see the doctor and got MC and assess my condition to see if it's ok to push myself. Heh, the best part about taking part in titans was that my seniors were all around to help me and push me on. BUT! it was stressful as I felt I was carrying the name of OAC on my shoulders, and I didn't want to throw its face. Then again I didn't train for it, so i couldn't expect too much from myself I guess. Thank goodness gew paced me for the 5km, if not I would have seriously died-ed along the way. The last part was pure mental torture!! And by sprinting the last part, I just collapsed at the finish line. heh. Oh well, at least I pushed myself although I got a disappointing 17th position. 

Next was shuttle run. Hell? YES! I went too slow for the first round, but the 2nd round, I pushed really hard. And collapsed again. Lol. Once again all the seniors were there, Kar Gea at the finish line keep pointing for me to run straight, wahaha, just reminds me of the oac trainings I had last time in TA1. Sadistic you might say, but after each push, the feeling is "shiok!" hahahaha. 

I was looking forward to the pull ups.. THEN. disappointment. really. I was so so so so embarrassed at my performance. only 22! wth. I just pulled claud aside and cried.. kit came over and rubbed my head and Mr Lim came over and said not to let the year 1s see, so I wiped my face, went to the toilet, and sobbed somemore. I was really scared for squat thrusts, but since I discovered a new method, I managed to do 62!!! hehehehe! 

The last thing was situps.. and guess what, I did the exact same number that I did in TA1 -.- 97. oh my. I was so so so happy it was all over, and really glad that I went through with the whole thing, I said I'll come back again in my last year to complete it, and push myself, and I did!!!

Yesterday, I felt like a queen! hehe.. thanks to shrimp and pj who help me massage and put deep heat, and joo wen and claud who help me massage, and all my other teammates, kheng ming, kit, sam, gew and mandy who supported me the whole way yesterday. Love you all!!

Today's log pt.. and I'm already aching like sh*t. goodluck to all of us. COME ON DELTA!! girls!! we CAN endure! =D

Hi guys!!!

haha... wow... it's been... more than a year since I've updated this blog.. and so many things have changed and past... i don't know how to account this down... but I shall just start.. i'm planning for this blog to have more pictures too.. so I think I shall just start off listing the major things this year, and my feelings from this recent month..

January and February: Chinese New Year Carnival =) awesome stuff! we restored it back to the scale it once was, and with a bunch of great HRC members, we put on a performance!! haha.. below is a photo of e guys and our props!!

March was the best month this year!! haha.. my 18th Birthday was fantastic.. the best and sweetest birthday I ever had.. With the 15th HC and 0506 and 0607 Oacians.. Nothing could beat that!! Really my Sweet 18th!!

15th HC!!

0506 and 0607 OACIANS =D

April was the super hectic preparation of Megahouse... which.... WAS A SUCCESS!!! it was awesome... I was so proud of my Decor team.. It was hell to do.. but oh so worth it =)

Also, there was track and field meet... well.. I helped out with cheerleading for the last week.. and was super tired...

May.. Straight after Megahouse.. it was the Geog field trip to Kuantan!! hehe.. FUN! but I'll upload photos on that next time...

2 weeks after the megahouse.. HC camp.. gee.. TIRING LIKE HELL. This month.. I seriously had the most pressure I've ever had.. Everything was coming down on me at one shot, school work was at me, family stress was at me, something else was bothering me(but I was too exhausted and stressed to worry about it at that time), the horrible sense of responsibility was at me again.. But now that HC camp is over, (and I think we planned an awesome camp!!!) I can take a 1 day breather before Titans tomorrow... I don't want to let OAC down, I don't want to let Delta down, and I don't want to let all those who have faith in me down!! heh...

The Whole 15th minus a few members

This has been just a list of what has happened this year.. major stuff.. last yr's I shan't go into.. too much happened... this year, even more happened, but I shall slowly update on that.. for now.. Titans is tomorrow and I need to rest so goodnight!!!*

GOODLUCK TO ALL TITANS PARTICIPANTS!!! =D