My Fairytale Fantasy

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Hi all.. Sorry I haven't been updating.. Well, my grandfather passed away on Saturday. I was heartbroken. He brought me up since young and we saw each other everyday. He was such a big part of my life... It pains me to finally say goodbye to him. But now I have learnt to accept it and keep him in my heart, but i miss him so so so much... I can still imagine him doing what he usually does.. Thanks goodness my memories of him now are of all the good times we shared before he got ill. Even up to now, his death still feels surreal to me. It's like I expect him to walk into the room and say, 'ah sian ah, bang wo ying ze ge ke yi ma?' I feel like crying everytime. Everywhere holds his memories. He thought me how to do so many things and loved me unconditionally. He used to bring me around to so many places, school, the library, shopping centres, food courts, market. Such a big part of my life has gone. But at least he is not suffering now... Even as I'm typing, tears are falling, I miss him so much... Life will never be the same, but I'll have to start anew and accept it. This is a first time experience and eye opener for me.. Today we went to collect his ashes. What an experience.. His bones were brown on the inside due to cancer. The sending of and collecting of ahses today were painful, but not as painful as the day he passed away. I miss him and will always remember him and love him. Ah Kong, Wo Ai Ni .