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Hihi~ I know some people don't like friends, relatives and family members to go and see a performance that he or she is in, because he or she feels shy and afraid what his or her friends would think(care too much bout what friends think), but I like it alot! I am so glad that my whole family is going to support me at our school's musical "Journey", my mum, dad, grandma and grandpa are all going. Whats more, my Uncle, Aunty and other Grandpa are going! =D Don't know whether my father's side family members want to go or not. Hope they do =)! In a way it means ALOT to me to have my family, relatives and friends support! My friends going are... hmZ~ Vanessa(thank you!!!) so far only. The others complain too ex, but they are considering, hahaZ~ Haven't ask all also. I have seen the script and can say that the Musical will not be boring I can assure you, in fact, it will be really interesting, from my point of view that is. Friday is the day we are getting our report cards back, worried actually, but I heard that I got top 10 in class, so if its true, then I'm satisfied. *sighs* Just remembered that this Saturday have the through-train thing at Temasek JC... My parents and teachers encourage me to go, but personally, I do not want to leave and am not ready to leave Temasek Secondary. If I go for the through-train thing, I will have to leave Temasek next year at Secondary 3! No thank you. Well, Vanessa stopped by to pass me the tickets to her school's Chinese Orchestra performance tomorrow night. Sadly no one accompany me. *sob* Just kidding =) Like I said, if the performance is really that bad, I'll drown myself in music from my mp3. Oh yes, last night i checked out the Sims2 website to know more about it and now I am DYING for it to come out. It is just so cool!!! Compared to THE SIMS, it is so much more interesting!!! Go and check out the website. (Click on Sims2) It's the best!!! The sad thing is that it will only come out in September. I can't wait that long!!! (but I have to *sobs*) Luckily I didn't find out about it last year or else the waiting for Sims2 to come out would have killed me!!(not literally). Today I have already finished my Maths homework now organising English file.. Oh well, I don't have much more to say already, see you~!

=[ tHoUgHtS fOr ThE dAy ]=



Hi, I seperated the issues for today because I wanted to start what I am going to say on a fresh entry. Well, in my past entries, I remember writing about the sheild around my heart right? I must say since those incidents in which I wish never to experience again, right now, I am perfectly happy the way I am. My friends and I have kind of made up and we're back on talking terms and "pally" terms again. But I do know for one thing that some people in the class are backstabbing me, people who were once close to me, I bear no grudges against them, just hope we can go through the remaining part of the year peacefully, however, that in a way is like asking for a miracle, but, miracles do come true right? I'd rather not backstab and talk bad about people now, but rather look at the situation more fairly, and sometimes I feel so pissed off, but I keep those feelings to myself, but sometimes, the feelings show on my face. Some people say things jokingly but those words actually hurt me alot, its just that I pretend its no big deal becuase I don't want to make such a fuss. I am really glad to have made up with my friends. Right now, what others say about me that is negative, I shut one ear and ignore the comment. Sometimes its better. No stress. No fuss. No troubles. If only it was that simple right?Unfortunately, life is not so easy. Some people in class happy than talk to me, not happy, show black face. Sometimes I ask myself why I still forgive them so easily, but right up to now, I still can't come up with the reason. Call me gullible and dumb, I just forgive too easily, thats a weak point for me in a way, but a strenght too. This "weakness/strenght" makes people take advantage of me sometimes and make use of me, and when I realise that, it really hurts me, but what can I do, huh... Sometimes I just really get so pissed off with some of my friends for taking me for granted, it's quite common. The feeling of being used it lousy. I'll stop talking for now, I think I have said enough. I'm not pin-pointing a person, but just saying how I feel about the way my friends treat me sometimes. ciaoZ~

=[ nOrMaL dAy ]=



Hi, only came back from school at 5 plus today and I'm so tired. Had choir and saw the choir schedule *horrified*. There are so many days with the time 9am-6pm. That is 9 hours long. Oh my Goodness! And the days nearing the Musical, we will have to stay at Kallang Theatre till 10pm. Gosh, I'm going to be so exhausted. When I came back my stomach was queasy and I felt like puking, so I had a nap. Now Mrs Loke gives us tickets to sell for the musical and I'm advertising it here, $20 and $30 tickets available to be bought, the musical is very interesting, please consider, alot of effort has been put into it. If you are interested, just approach me or any other choir member and you can get your tickets, thank you! Not that I think anyone would read it here you know. *laughs* Now that exams are over, just as I thought that I can slack abit, our kind teacher especially the kindest of all Ma Lao Shi just has to go and give us more lovely homework. Haha, this reminds me of the Literature paper, in the unseen poem "Homework, I Love You!" I kind of slack, like my biji for the first time this year, I did not do, and zuoye also have not done. I decide to do it over the weekends, I just really feel so lazy. And I think I'll have an early night today, I'm always half asleep in class, nothing much more to say already, good night~

=[ SoLeM fEeLiNgS ]=



Hello, sorry for not updating for so long. These few days I have been constantly watching Korean dramas. The first one I watched is "Glass Shoes". This drama made me cry so much, especially the part when the guy died, nevermind, I'm talking bits and pieces from the drama that I'm sure makes completely no sense to you. sorry... These few days by watching the dramas, by reading different things, makes me see how unfair the world is, it gets me thinking that the world we live in cannot be happy all the time. So i guess I still have to look for that silver lining in a cloud at all times. Some people are so 'bitchy' you know! I mean seeing from the Korean drama, even just by watching what she did, I feel like going up to her and slapping her! All the things I heard, watched and read all make me feel so solem.. Its as though some people have no heart, why can't they see that being evil leads us to nowhere but our own dooms? I think watching these drama serials make me wake up and realise the world is not as innocent, as much as I want it to be. I just finishes reading 'Outsiders' for the second time, and am already feeling so solem. My goals this holiday is to re-watch all the favourite Korean Dramas, do well and hope to win for Yes! competition, reach what is expected of my group and I for entreprenuership for our school's musical and one more private thing that I'm not ready to reveal yet. Oh yes, my results. I am so disappointed with them.



Here's what I got(just for the paper itself):

English - 60%

Chinese - 55%

Mathematics - 79%

Science - 83%

Literature - 68%

History - 68%

Home Economics - 74.5%



Pretty pathetic right? Only have two A1s, and the home econs missed A1 by half a mark! I am so disappointed with my History marks because I studied the hardest for that. Even though the night before the exam I was coughing and sneezing and every cough made me feel so weak that I had to lie down for a moment, I still carried on revising,but only got a B3... Oh well, I can't do anything about it now, just put in even more effort for Geography to make up for it. *thinking* Is the entry long enough already? I don't know but I feel like watching Korean dramas again now, see you!~ *smiles and waves*

=[ wHat A dAy ]=



Hi, sorry for not updating for four days, was too busy playing SIMS. It rocks! However, it is so difficult to advance a level, oh well... Today was nothing but boredom, for me that is, some other people might not have found it as boring as I did. I'm not going to say anything else about today because although I always try to look on the bright side of life, but, I still cannot figure out any good part of today. My head ached, my stomach ached and I was so dead tired. Well, I found out something yesterday which made a big difference to my life, a bad difference, not good, didn't get good sleep, maybe thats why I was so down in school today. Never expected that thing to happen, but it has, so I can't do anything but accept it. *sighs* I am so... Oh nevermind, nothing much to say already, see you~

=[ eXaMs ArE oVeR!~ ]=



Finally the sickening exams are over, then why don't I feel elated? I don't know, it's like, I don't feel any change, maybe because the paper today was not brilliantly easy for me. Oh well, I'll get used to the idea of the exams being over soon. Today Mrs Loke give some of us the Temasek Junior College Through-Train( I don't know how it's spelt) form and I was kind of brooding over it. I mean yes, there would be many advantages, but, if I go for it, I would have to leave Temasek next year, and I don't think I'm ready for that yet. *sigh* I don't know, my parents encourage it, but I don't know, I'm kinda confused in a way. jin tui liang nan. Oh well, I guess I shouldn't think so much about it, but it's hard not to. My SIMS irritatingly cannot be played, so I had to re-install. Have to borrow two versions from my friends. Today I bought the SIMS superstar and making magic, so decided that I'd rather lose all the data inside than to not be able to play for the whole holiday. However, when I read the instruction booklet, it stated that there were ways for me to be able to save my buildings and families, I tried it, but don't know the results yet, oh well, must wait till my friends lend me, I want to install in order. I think I have wrote enough for today, see you~! *smiles and waves*

=[ pRePaRaTiOnS ]=



Hello, I just finished my revision for Maths, had prepared for it whole day today, went to the library to borrow books too. All in all, today, i can just remember studying and studying. Oh, at dinner time, my Grandmother told some Chinese idiom like phrases and made me laugh so much till my sides hurt. I literally laughed till tears came out. It was hilarious. I don't think there is anything else, so, see you~ *smiles*