My Fairytale Fantasy

hmm.. yesterday's training was.. emotional. Lol.. the only word I can find to describe it. stairs training.. 1st round 5.30mins.. then 2nd round...first time in a long long time since beginning as trainee last time that I was on the verge of hyperventilating again at the top.. Was remembering kg and yc's advice everytime i hyperventilate. Then was ok.. but still.. that took like 8mins. UGH. Slope training was at the cemetry playground that i always used to go when I still stayed at Sennett. After one round, had a really bad 'stitch' on my right side.. I gues I overexerted during stairs.. Sitting down at the park pavillion, looking around at the familiar sights... Then the rain came.. and I dunno, but somehow it just induces the emotions and memories.. The time when my grandfather was around, we use to race up the hill and sit there and talk and laugh with my dog as well.. At the swings, he used to push me so high and i'll pretend to kick him and he'll pretend to try very hard at avoiding me.. It brough back memories of lantern festival every year when we were still staying at Sennett.. that's pretty much my whole life.. It brought back memories when my dad and i use to run to the fitness corner, last time he being faster than me, now the vice versa... Simply.. It brought back memories when life for me was so uncomplicated, my family was still one, my troubles limites to school work. Its scary how things can just change in 2 years. Now, my beloved ah kong has left our world and my family has broken apart. The tears just wouldn't stop. I hated the feeling. But then again, I wanted to remember. And I needed to see Sennett again.. Seeing it look so empty, so old and with the for sale sign on the gate.. made my heart squeeze.. what can I say? I have to move on? I know I do.. but.. its just so.. hard... I try not to show it to my mum, I know she's having a hard enough time, so i know i have to be strong for her.. but i guess once in awhile.. I need to let go of my emotions too.. Life as i know it.. is changing.. For better or for worse.. its perception i guess. But i know no matter what, I will still live life to the fullest and to my utmost contentment. And i will always smile =) May be my way of masking my sadness.. but hey.. its anytime better than sighing and frowning all the time right?? so now.. I shall do something brainless that kenneth yong sent through email.. lol..

~*YOU*~
1.What Time is it now? 11.30p.m, 26/10/2006
2.What is your full name? Loh Sze Sian
3.Single or taken? Single.. lol
4.What does your name mean? For my Chinese name... Sze (si) is from family tradition.. means.. ability to think, and sian (xian) means refined and adept;skilled .. lol..
5.Who picked out your name? my mum and dad...
6.What's your nickname? sian, ss, sze zi, xiao xian (courtesy of claudyne), sian sian
7.What colour are your eyes? brownish black
8 Do you have an innie or an outie? eh.. what's tht?
9.What size are your shoes? 7-8..
10.How tall (or short) are you? haha.. 166cm.. tall i guess
11.Honestly what do you like about yourself? umm.. that i can enjoy the outdoors etc but at the same time am able to do the other end of things like dance =)
12.What do you always get complimented on??? erm.. lol.. from relatives and parent's friends.. its always grown taller, prettier, slimer tht kind of thing la.. from friends generation... eh.. if from primary school havent seen me then is i've grown slimer.. LOL!
13.What is your worst quality? hm.. sometimes too impatient and can be bossy i feel.., OH! and i cant stand that im too shy around stangers..

14.What are the last four
digits of your phone Number? 3380.. lol? geez, wht's the purpose..
15.Do you think you're cute? lol.. only kyong will say duh. um.. i've been called that before but i think its a little weird to be called cute.
16.Hair colour? brownish black
17.Do you wear contacts? yup.. very convenient =D
18.Living Arrangements? condominium



~*FAVOURITES*~
19.Favourite drink? water, green tea, milo
20.Favourite alcholic Drink? eh.. dun really like alcholic drinks.. i'll sip a little wine i guess...
21.Favourite Month? decmeber! I love christmas =D
22.Favourite Food? hmm.. dun really have a favourite.. no veggie though!! and no fish!
23.Favourite Board Game? hmm.. not fond of board games...
24.Favourite Web Site? its varies according to time ba..
25.Favourite Clothing Brand? esprit? haha.. but only buy them in HK.. no fav i guess.. whatever looks good is good enough for me..
26.Favourite day of the Year? christmas! although im not Christian.. haha.. love the feeling..
27.Favourite colour? white, silver, baby pink (powderpink) and baby blue, autumn tones, khaki tones..
28.Favourite Animal? Dogs.. horses..
29.Do you have more girl or boy friends? Around the same?
30.Who's your bestfriend? My mum!
31.Are your parents together? no
32.How often do you get together with the family? About 3-4 times a month? as in go out to shopping centres and walk walk with the whole family. with one family member.. about 2-3 times a week..
33.Do you tell your parents or your friends more? i tell them everything.. including boys i like and what i do everyday =D
34.Anything special about your parents? they brought me up, gave me a home, gave me the most important thing, LOVE. =D


~*YES OR NO*~
35.You're a flirt? nope.. don't know how to.. haha
36.You're slutty? no -.-
37.You're mean? nope
38.You like someone? tht is a sensitive question.. lol..
39.You can keep secrets? yup, definately
40.You dance in front of the mirror? heh.. all the time *blush*
41.You smart? define smart? i guess so since im in IP.
42.You sing in the shower? yep
43.You liked Britney Spears? used to be a fan.. she's ok i guess..
44.You've liked a cousin? no!
45.You've been in the opposite sexes bathroom? yuup. lol.. when there's like only oac left in the school la..
46.You've seriously hurt someone close to you emotionally? NO
47.You swear? yes.. why would i lie about something like that?
48.You get your way? depends.. if my wants are valid then yup.
49.You're willing to try new things? definately.. as long as it's beneficial and i've thought through it myself and with my parents and friends.
50.You've cheated on a test? no! goodness. never even thought about it..
51.You've smoked? no way.. no intention to either. can't even stand the smell of it.
52.What are you wearing? eh.. lol? PJs..
53.What colour are your pants? umm... long pants? pink..
54.What are you listening to? The sound of music soundtrack.. it's the best!
55.How are you feeling? hahaha.. neutral..
56.What are you doing? chatting online..
57.What are you eating? nothing..
58.How many people are online? 43.. haha?
59.How's the weather? good weather! slight rain.. fresh air.. good PSI.. 25 =D
60.What's on your mouse pad? don't use it..
61.what are you reading? Labyrinth by Kate Mosse

~*GIRLS ONLY*~
62.What perfume do you use? normally use Lancome's Miracle
63.What's in your purse? um.. cards.. neoprints.. money?
64.Thong or regular panties? geez.. no thongs thanks..
65.Tall or short boys? Tall of course..
66.Blonde or brunette guys? ehh... brunette..
67.Good or bad boy? Good boys please.. but not mummy's boy..
68.Boxers showing? eww! NO.
69.Long hair or short hair on boys? I like clean cut =D short!
70.What do you find annoying in a guy? if they keep on disturbing or insulting you to get your attention. Guys who swear (vulgarities), guys who are too loud, guys who flirt too much, guys who do disgusting and gross actions and make loud comments at the same time (its a turnoff). But i can tolerate them =)
71.What's the first thing you notice about guys? The way they act around their friends, how they treat people, their looks and build.


~*GUYS ONLY*~
72.What kind of cologne do you use?
73.What's in your pockets?
74.Boxers or briefs?
75.Blonde or brunette girls?
76.Tall or short girls?
77.Piercings on girls?
78.Long or short hair on girls?
79.Good or bad girl?
80.What do you find annoying in girls?
81.What 's the first thing you notice about girls?

~*OTHER QUESTIONS*~
82.What was the last movie you saw in the cinema? Eh.. i forgot the title.. Robbyhood or something.. Jackie Chan's comedy..
83.What did you have for dinner? chicken rice
84.What are you hoping for? a lot of things.. but basically.. happiness and contentment.

85.Have you ever fallen asleep in school? yuup.. not in lessons though.. during break times in oac room, library etc..
86.What movie do you really want to see? no strong desires.. lol..
87.Tell us about those scars? bicycle.. scooter.. just walking.. running.. lol.. all on the knees.. poor knees..
88.What is your locker combo? my locker has a key.. not combination.. hahaha...
89.Where is your favourite place to travel? Hong Kong... shopping!!! I want to travel Europe!! Rome.. Italy.. Paris.. Spain.. etc etc etc..
90.You last dream about? I normally cant remember my dreams..
91.What was the last thing you ate? dinner.. haha..
92. If you were a crayon what colour would you be? pink!
93. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Miko from my dance school..
94.Do you like the person that sent this to you? Kenneth Yong.. hahaha
95.Ever had a crush on a teacher? nope.. thank goodness..
96.Are you too shy to ask someone out? haha.. its like against my value/belief system.. i think guys should always make the first move.. yeah.. old fashioned but oh well..
97.Scary movies or happy ending? happy endings definately!!! =D *sighs dreamily*
98.Summer or winter? winter.. we have too much summer.. but then again.. i love summer too..
99.Relationships or one night stands? relationships definately! no one night stands. ugh.
100.Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate... but with a brownie.. vanilla is yum yum!
104.What did you do last night? i don't really remember.. was very tired after training.. oh.. i watched John Tucker Must Die (movie) then slept.

~*QUESTIONS aBOUT THE PERSon WHO SENT THIS EMAIL*~ Kenneth Yong..
105.is this person pretty? NO! hahah..
106.is this person fun to be around?? i guess la.. only if u can tolerate his humour =P
107.is this person a close friend of yours? ok? getting to know him better ba.. oac mate.
108.what is your first impression of this person? HAHA!! called wei kheam sir de.. (if i dun remember wrongly)
109.what do you think this persons worst quality is? act zai and always complementing himself.. only kana suan instead.. better when he's not acting and just his normall self!
110. this person annoying? sometimes.. LOL...

IM done! haha.. okie.. shall go to sleep now.. nights!!