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Hi all.. Sorry I haven't been updating.. Well, my grandfather passed away on Saturday. I was heartbroken. He brought me up since young and we saw each other everyday. He was such a big part of my life... It pains me to finally say goodbye to him. But now I have learnt to accept it and keep him in my heart, but i miss him so so so much... I can still imagine him doing what he usually does.. Thanks goodness my memories of him now are of all the good times we shared before he got ill. Even up to now, his death still feels surreal to me. It's like I expect him to walk into the room and say, 'ah sian ah, bang wo ying ze ge ke yi ma?' I feel like crying everytime. Everywhere holds his memories. He thought me how to do so many things and loved me unconditionally. He used to bring me around to so many places, school, the library, shopping centres, food courts, market. Such a big part of my life has gone. But at least he is not suffering now... Even as I'm typing, tears are falling, I miss him so much... Life will never be the same, but I'll have to start anew and accept it. This is a first time experience and eye opener for me.. Today we went to collect his ashes. What an experience.. His bones were brown on the inside due to cancer. The sending of and collecting of ahses today were painful, but not as painful as the day he passed away. I miss him and will always remember him and love him. Ah Kong, Wo Ai Ni .

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Hi! The last time I updated was on Monday if i'm not wrong. Lots have happened since then, especially on the design of the classroom. The second day of the workshop we went to this place called SOHO (small office, home office) to get design ideas. The show flats were GORGEOUS. I loved it, so did my classmates. It was soooo cool. Since it was a office plus home, the bed was on a raised platform, like attic style (have pics in my xanga site), so awesome!!! But the discussion was hell. The whole class couldn't come to an agreement on what we should have done. I lost my voice then. -.- So sad, now I'm having both cough and sore throat. For some reason, I get cough so often, it's so sickening. Finally when some people left, and only a few remained, we came to the concept we liked to call, the treehouse concept. We wanted to make the class as homely and comfortable as possible. We were going to paint the back walls from dark green to light green, the right and left side wall in stripes in different shades of brown for the top part, and dark wood for the bottom part. The front where the whiteboard was would be the colour called "just peachy". The floors were a major issue, we wanted linoleum flooring, but it would cost about $1,800. That was alllooottt. About 9000 HK. The budget went waaay overcost, so we settle with painting the floor, though we didn't really like the idea. The next day we went to IKEA. Scouted for affordable yet condusive furniture, but we weren't given much time, so everything was very rushed. Once we went back, we started on making the mock-up version of how our classroom would be like (pics in xanga). We worked till 7pm. Today, we worked on our mock-up classroom once again till about 11.30am. I was in-charge of mock-up, so we concentrated on that. I'm quite proud to say that my team mates did a good job, I'm proud of what we accomplished. At around 1.10pm, the presentations for all 5 classes to present their idea for the class was held. Let's just say I didnt know where to hide my face for my group's presentation. We were hoping that the mock-up presentation would give us time to let those who know the mock-up settings to explain it. Sadly, we were only given 5 minutes, we couldn't present anything!!! =( In the end, we just got consolation prize. The group whose seating arrangements were in a huge X formation won. That group was soooo sucking up to the judges, we were revolted. But looks like it helped them win. Personally, we all preferred our classroom. I guess it's a definate. We suited the class to how the people in the class would like it. I still love our class the best. While the judges were deciding on the results, we were to go and see our PDPs(co-curricular-activities). I signed up for Dance, Outdoor Activities Club(OAC) and Astronomy Club. Our teacher recommends only 1 PDP though... I think I'll go for OAC, it's the most interesting. Hiking, climbing mountains, kayaking, interacting with nature, oh bliss!!! ^^ Hopefully I can also take up astronomy... It's on Friday nights(groan, no going out)... Oh well, see first!!! =) These few days besides the class design thing has been a very emotional rollercoaster for me. Some people will know what I mean. Let's just say a relative is sick. I've been crying so much my eyes get puffy and sore in the mornings. But life must go on, I have to be strong. I'll end here, check out the pictures in my xanga web!! ^^