Wednesday, May 28, 2008

{dreaming.. wishing.. hoping..*}

haha.. today was a productive day! studied from 9.30am to 1pm, then from 2pm to 4.30pm.. ok i guess.. 6 hours.. finally finished hydrology! well.. I enjoyed yesterday better though.. I read a book called "The Templar Legacy" by Steve Berry. I love those kind of books! 

This book was about the controversies in the bible in the New Testament. The arguments and debates are the same as those the academics are making and I find it really interesting! In the books, apparently, the Knights are guarding Jesus's bones, that shows that he was not resurrected. Obviously this is fictional, but there are possibilities that it could be true! I'll put some quotations to illustrate what I mean =)

There are 4 different books in the New Testament, and apparently, the accounts of Jesus's crucifixion and resurrection all differ slightly,  thus, makes it so questionable. The discovery of the Gnostic Gospels also seem to support the theory held by the book. 

In everything we consider, there's always the language dilemma. "The Old Testament was written in Hebrew. The New was penned in Greek, and any source materials, if they even existed, would have been in Aramaic. Then there's the issue of the sources themselves." Once something is open to interpretation or translation, it more or less immediately looses its objectivity.

In the accounts of the resurrection,  "Each Gospel has a different version of who went to the tomb, what was found there - even the days of the week are unclear. And as to Jesus's appearance after the resurrection - none of the accounts agree on any point." It also states that "Whenever a problem exists with biblical texts, the solution is easy. It's faith." 

I loved reading this book because I myself have read about these controversies and thought about stuff like that. In the book, the 'truth' is revealed through Simon Peter's testament(which in reality does not exist, but I think reflects the author's thoughts and opinions on this matter), and I honestly have to say I seem to believe that account of it. I always wondered whether the man Jesus was actually a normal man, that was an enlightened being, but not one that could do miracles, but give people the strength to cure themselves, and give them the strength to renew themselves. I wonder whether these instances were elevated to become miracles, for religious purposes. One thing suggested was that the resurrection was actually actually a spiritual, not religious one. 

I do believe a God exists, and I do believe in religion, but not in any one general particular one, but I appreciate the whole idea of religion as a guide to living a good life, a proper one. And from all that I know of religion, every religion seems to do that one thing, give people strength to carry on, give people a suggestion of what the best way to live life is, how to be a good person, and tries to explain what reality and self is. They all seem to do it in different ways, but to me, they're all different routes to the same goal! =D I know religion comforts me and calms me down though, and thus I am not a skeptic! I watched a documentary, and the academics who specialize in these Christian controversies, are all believers of Christ, but say that questioning of the Truth is what makes it challenging. 

hehe.. just a little something I wanted to share, hope it's not too wth-ing. I think controversies, especially religious ones are really interesting!! I wanna read another book.. But I need to study =( boo.. ok.. gotta go and study again soon.. and I need to exercise!! eating too much. lol.. bye!!*

Monday, May 26, 2008

{dreaming.. wishing.. hoping..*}

sigh.. term 2 is finally over.. I'm really sad!! it marks the end of all interesting activities and marks the beginning of the long road to mugging for A levels. bah. 
oh! titans i got 10th.. im not happy, I'm relieved. haha.. should have trained for it but oh well.. too late, i'm just glad i pushed myself! and oh no my muscles seem to be building.. tone down time!!

Now that things have simmered down.. I really have had the time to think.. and.. I know what I want for some stuff already. I just wish I can turn back the time and have things as they were. I feel like it's all my fault that things turned out the way they did. What was i thinking.. I just want to talk. And clarify some stuff.. Hope I get the chance to do that soon cause it's really bugging and bothering me! Must study with a clear mind.. seriously... 

JCTs.. I don't think I'm ready for it. I'll just do my best, but not mug 24/7 cause if not i'll burn out. Can't do that before the A levels! But its saddening now.. no study partner =( ahh.. lol.. I miss studying with 0607!!!!!!! I think studying alone everyday will be so super boring. boo. I wanna study in school cause I can concentrate there, but there's no one to study with tmr!! bored...

lol, I asked gew to come over and accompany me in the oac room today and to just chat and have dinner.. I seriously needed someone to talk to, so thank goodness he came and made me feel better =) I went home to watch disney channel too and that helped! Now... back to mugging.. oh well... I hope things get better soon. I hate this feeling..

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

{dreaming.. wishing.. hoping..*}

well.. yesterday marked the beginning of Titans 2008, individual events!! I was so scared the night before that I couldn't sleep properly.. Then I went to see the doctor and got MC and assess my condition to see if it's ok to push myself. Heh, the best part about taking part in titans was that my seniors were all around to help me and push me on. BUT! it was stressful as I felt I was carrying the name of OAC on my shoulders, and I didn't want to throw its face. Then again I didn't train for it, so i couldn't expect too much from myself I guess. Thank goodness gew paced me for the 5km, if not I would have seriously died-ed along the way. The last part was pure mental torture!! And by sprinting the last part, I just collapsed at the finish line. heh. Oh well, at least I pushed myself although I got a disappointing 17th position. 

Next was shuttle run. Hell? YES! I went too slow for the first round, but the 2nd round, I pushed really hard. And collapsed again. Lol. Once again all the seniors were there, Kar Gea at the finish line keep pointing for me to run straight, wahaha, just reminds me of the oac trainings I had last time in TA1. Sadistic you might say, but after each push, the feeling is "shiok!" hahahaha. 

I was looking forward to the pull ups.. THEN. disappointment. really. I was so so so so embarrassed at my performance. only 22! wth. I just pulled claud aside and cried.. kit came over and rubbed my head and Mr Lim came over and said not to let the year 1s see, so I wiped my face, went to the toilet, and sobbed somemore. I was really scared for squat thrusts, but since I discovered a new method, I managed to do 62!!! hehehehe! 

The last thing was situps.. and guess what, I did the exact same number that I did in TA1 -.- 97. oh my. I was so so so happy it was all over, and really glad that I went through with the whole thing, I said I'll come back again in my last year to complete it, and push myself, and I did!!!

Yesterday, I felt like a queen! hehe.. thanks to shrimp and pj who help me massage and put deep heat, and joo wen and claud who help me massage, and all my other teammates, kheng ming, kit, sam, gew and mandy who supported me the whole way yesterday. Love you all!!

Today's log pt.. and I'm already aching like sh*t. goodluck to all of us. COME ON DELTA!! girls!! we CAN endure! =D

Monday, May 19, 2008

Hi guys!!!

haha... wow... it's been... more than a year since I've updated this blog.. and so many things have changed and past... i don't know how to account this down... but I shall just start.. i'm planning for this blog to have more pictures too.. so I think I shall just start off listing the major things this year, and my feelings from this recent month..
January and February: Chinese New Year Carnival =) awesome stuff! we restored it back to the scale it once was, and with a bunch of great HRC members, we put on a performance!! haha.. below is a photo of e guys and our props!!

March was the best month this year!! haha.. my 18th Birthday was fantastic.. the best and sweetest birthday I ever had.. With the 15th HC and 0506 and 0607 Oacians.. Nothing could beat that!! Really my Sweet 18th!!

15th HC!!

0506 and 0607 OACIANS =D


April was the super hectic preparation of Megahouse... which.... WAS A SUCCESS!!! it was awesome... I was so proud of my Decor team.. It was hell to do.. but oh so worth it =)


Also, there was track and field meet... well.. I helped out with cheerleading for the last week.. and was super tired...

May.. Straight after Megahouse.. it was the Geog field trip to Kuantan!! hehe.. FUN! but I'll upload photos on that next time...

2 weeks after the megahouse.. HC camp.. gee.. TIRING LIKE HELL. This month.. I seriously had the most pressure I've ever had.. Everything was coming down on me at one shot, school work was at me, family stress was at me, something else was bothering me(but I was too exhausted and stressed to worry about it at that time), the horrible sense of responsibility was at me again.. But now that HC camp is over, (and I think we planned an awesome camp!!!) I can take a 1 day breather before Titans tomorrow... I don't want to let OAC down, I don't want to let Delta down, and I don't want to let all those who have faith in me down!! heh...



The Whole 15th minus a few members


This has been just a list of what has happened this year.. major stuff.. last yr's I shan't go into.. too much happened... this year, even more happened, but I shall slowly update on that.. for now.. Titans is tomorrow and I need to rest so goodnight!!!*

GOODLUCK TO ALL TITANS PARTICIPANTS!!! =D