heys all!
first of... I'm so so sorry I haven't been updating.. especially friends who've been complaining at my negligence.
Well... prelims are over.. and sometimes I wonder whether I studied anything at all...
annoyingly, We only get our results back like one piece at a time.. and I'm getting a heart attack about my Human geog.
It's depressing. What I studies hard for... I FAILED. but.. surprisingly.. Lit is ok.. so far at least. And I didn't study for that. weird much.
I really believe there's something about the feng shui this year..
It's not a good year for those born in the year of the horses.. And apparently, it's hard to focus, concentrate etc. I believe in it, those some may be skeptical about it, but it's my choice so i believe =P
Sometimes... seeing people around me happily attached and having such a sweet partner to go to and rely on causes something in me to feel hollow, empty, a gut twisting feeling.. Really makes you wonder.. what you are missing out...
Well, I recently joined fitness first and got a personal trainer.. and I guess it's unusual for someone my age to get one.. haha.. Liesel said the only people she's heard getting personal trainers are either overweight or much older and unfit..
Now... I'm wondering what my purpose of getting a personal trainer is.. I thought it was actually for looking good during grad night. Well, that is a goal, but it's only part of the reason I realized.. It's not so simple I guess.. When you've been fat and ugly before, looking good adds a hell lot of confidence... I mean.. I've always known that I'm not that confident of the way I look, especially since I was so fat in primary school and got called 'fatty'. Though those days are thankfully over, I guess that it did something to my self confidence..
I want a trainer to whip me into shape, so that I have no qualms about how I look. Its something to do with looking good to feel good..
I know a lot of people think I am confident of myself... Of my abilities yes, definitely, but.. sometimes, I get easily intimidated, I just choose not to show it.. oh well.
I can't help but sometimes wonder.. With couples all around me getting attached, why I haven't met a guy I like and likes me back. I'm not gonna say what's wrong with me because I know my friends will kill me, but sometimes it just feels that way. ahh...
haha, ok, on a side note... There's this really cute guy at the gym.. I don't know why I feel somewhat attracted to him... There are loads of guys with good built good looks and all that there but he just captured my attention immediately when I walked into the gym the first time, but I wasn't really affected by the other guys. Weird how things work that way.. oh well... hehe=)
oh yes... I finally went kayaking again!! Hehe.. and got a tan =DD I really really miss having a tan and I like how I look! yayness! Went with gew and kit.. and kayaked on singles.. ugh.. gew! you said you'd kayak doubles with me!!!!! My arms were so tired.. though we didn't travel far.. hahahaha... we were against the tide, so... yeah.. but the way back was only half and hour compared to one and a half hour we took getting to the place before turning back.. lunch at sea =) oh how i miss the feeling of being out in the open sea and bobbing around in the water.. If only I can find out what's wrong with my technique, ugh. I kayak so slowly!
I AM ACHING. BADLY. But feels 'shiok' to a certain extent, feels good to know I worked my butt off... hehe. hopefully will see results soon!!
and yes.. amazing how some people have the ability to brighten up your day with simple gestures.. hehe =) go figure =P
I shall add photos another time... nothing much to add though...
byeeeeeee!
