`+._ Thoughts and Feelings _.+`

Hmm.. I guess nowadays, I'm feeling just like I used to feel. A bit being taken for granted. I don't mind helping when asked or offering to help. But the annoying thing is that when people assume things, and there's a communication break down, some people get irritated and.. makes me feel real bad. They are irritated, that I can tell. And the horrible thing is, in the end, I ask myself, was it worth helping? I feel that the blame is on me and I feel really terrible. Is it worth putting myself through that? Yet I like helping people. To a certain extent though. Some people ask me to help do stuff, I agree, and then when mentioning the issue, they make it seem as though I'm their servant -.- You know who you are. Gosh, I know you may like to joke abit, but seriously, it makes me feel stupid, that I had been taken for granted. Well, I am just irritated with some people today and the way they treat me. Hopefully my mood will get better by tomorrow. Well, my braces are not as bad.. but still.. I wish it would stop hurting. I can't chew properly, it's so irritating. It's the last day for the 2-Star kayaking course tomorrow. I really hope I can pass. And I pray my braces don't hurt. Timing for 2.4km today, 13.50min. I should improve by at least 20 more secs.. goal by next week.. I really hope I can acheive it. By the time I leave TJC, I must be able to complete it within 12 mins. 3 more years, possible. Today's OAC session was on the facilitation course by Mr Fun. I guess we realized how important it is to know each other as teammates, our strengths and weaknesses. We all managed to climb the wall in 2 min +! =D Of course with assistance, haha, only Kai Sheng didn't need help. Well, this entry's purpose is for me to let out all my feelings previously mentioned, to wind off and cool down, that kind of thing =) Something learnt from Mr Fun and the tower obstacle, you have to dare to let go, in order to move on. It really applies to lots of different things. Relationships, the loss of a family member, being upset and let down over something, irritation with people etc. Just let it go! And look to a better time and day ahead. Bye for now ^^

`+._ Harry Potter, Kayaking and Braces _.+`

Hii.. Well, the 6th book of the Harry Potter series is finally out! And guess what? I went leisure kayaking on that day. Hm.. I don't regret going for kayaking at all. It was loads and loads of fun!!! I felt so tired after that and was like a zombie going to dance class. But i still really enjoyed my dance class =D as usual, it rocks! By the time I got home, I was just flat out on my bed. The next day was torturous as I had Maths tuition in the morning for 2 hrs, followed by 1 hour of maths homework, break for lunch, 3 hours of Chinese tuition came back to do Chemistry homework and then went for dinner. Bought the adult's Harry Potter version. =D I went home and had to do Geography hmwk before I happily sat and read my book. The next day was a pain in the neck too. People were trying to tell me about the plot of the story and it was simply so irritating. Classes were especially long and I was walking almost everywhere with the book. I finally finished it in the afternoon. Well.. It's sad I must say.. And I'm not rejoicing about the shippers either. It was a good book though. Now I can't wait for the 7th book. The week was hectic for me with OAC and piles of homework. Ah... This week ain't gonna be better. The last weekend, 23rd and 24th, we had part of the 2-star kayaking course. I loved the course for some reason.. haha.. so much more fun than the one-star course. But I definately got more bruises than the previous course, with all the hip flicks =P Anyway, my resolution is to be able to do the paddle roll by next Saturday, last day of the 2-star course. I'll try my best and if I can't, I know that I have already done my best. Well.. Guess what, I had no idea that I was going to the dentist to put on braces today. haha, I thought it was only a check up and vuala! I have braces now. And they are hurting... I can't fully close my mouth because they put something to prevent is from closing so that my crossbite can come out. Ah.. I 'close' my mouth, and my tongue can poke through it! haha.. Well... Two years... I hope that I'll get used to them soon. Even smiling is awkward! haha, anyway, cheerios for now!

`+._ Just another day_.+`

Today started off with Maths lesson on a new topic.. Thank goodness I can still follow.. Next was dreaded PE.. I was still aching all over, the after effects of OAC handover PT. It was so tiring and painful to run on the track. Is it just me, or is the track harder to run than on the road. I guess it's just my phobia. I don't exactly have the most pleasant memories on the track. Haha. Well... There was a good part after the run =D We took height and weight, I lost weight and grew taller!! I am so happy. Haha.. I thought I put on weight instead. The PE teachers are starting to prepare us for our Nagfa test coming up soon.. I hope I can score full 30 points.. That's my goal. Well, lessons went on as smoothly, kind of. I drank in Miss Ng's class and got a polite telling off. I really don't like those kind of telling offs.. It made me feel really bad that I did not think about what she said myself. Oh well.. I won't drink in class again.. Repentence.. I always wonder why I feel so bad about some little things when others would just simply not care at all. The information goes in from one ear and comes out from the other. Well, I guess it's good to know that you are in the wrong.. But it doesn't help how I felt. Okay... I have stuff to settle and am going to get started on them before it gets collected up into a mountainous pile.

Ciaos~

`+._ The dreaded results.. _.+`

Now's the sad part.. my results... Gosh... These results are one of the worst I've ever received.. Something that I feel I have to get accustomed to in TJC for the first few terms. Guess what? The play I practiced so hard for... didn't turn out well. My group marks got 9/25... atrocious.. Individual, 19/25... Not up to expectation either.. Best Actor was Sandy, and Best Actress was Jane =D Congrats to you both! Geography, thank goodness was not too bad, 32/40. But for some stange reason, I did not feel satisfied. What is wrong with me -.-? It's one of the highest in class already and I'm still not satisfied. Oh well... I'm just having a bad day I guess. We went back to Temasek Sec to 'promote' the Integrated Programme. Oddly enough, besides seeing my friends, I felt so so foreign in the school, as though the people there were putting on a show, being fake. It's just a feeling, maybe because I haven't been back in ages. Congrats to TAG! You guys rule.. sadly, I can't go back and join you guys for practice.. I really want to.. but don't have the time =( The minute I stepped back into TJC compound, I felt so much at home.. It was an awesome feeling. I love TJC now, no matter how stressful it is and how busy it makes me. Then it was doom time.. LA (English and Lit) results.. We piled into LT1 and awaited our fates. I failed my essay, 23/50, but luckily, passed my comprehension, 28/50. Overall, thank good fortune, that I passed.. 51/100 -.-.. Pathetic I know, but.. at least I didn't fail.. Gosh, only about 10% passed the essay.. Well.. I have to study harded, and I feel so happy now that at least I can understand Maths.. I think I'm gonna need some help still though.. I wonder whether my seniors will have time to help me =S But they themselves are so busy, 'bu4 hao3 yi4 si4' to ask them. I'll live. =P So.. that's it for today.. Let's just say no matter how tough OAC trainings are, I always look forward to every single meeting.

Cheerios for now~

The OAC Handover

After 6 months of blood, sweat and tears, it was finally time for the OAC handover. The times we have quarrelled with each other, encouraged each other, seek comfort in each other, worked together, had fun together, learned together and supported each other, all came down to this day.

I couldn't imagine what the seniors would first want us to accomplish before the handover. In time, I found out. It was the toughest training I ever had. The day started off with running the titans route twice, with 7kg backpack, the guys had to carry 12kg. That means it's about 10km. It was an individual run, which meant that there was no one to encourage me and push me on. In all my life, I had never once pushed my physical limits and it was only with the help of my teammates and the seniors that I can achieve the physical standard that I have now. Initially, I did not know that we were required to run the route twice, I only thought we had to do it once. Then, my goal was to jog the 5km Titan’s route without stopping. That would be my first time doing so. I told myself, 'if you stop, then you are quitting' I did not want to quit. Therefore, no matter how tired I was, I pushed on, and managed to do so faster than I have done before. However, when I realized that that was not the end of the run, I felt so puzzled and let down. I literally had to force myself to keep on jogging. I just kept telling myself that for this run, what mattered to me was not the speed in which I was able to complete it, however, it was the endurance in which I subjected myself to without stopping. I myself knew that I was jogging extremely slowly, I wanted to speed up, but then I failed myself by not being able to do so. That was one part I was extremely disappointed in myself. I promise myself that I would persevere on and with a faster speed next time. To improve oneself for the betterment of the team. That's our motto.

I love my teammates to bits now. They are my extended family in which I feel I have 12 older brothers and sisters who will watch out for me. That kind of a feeling is like none other. It's the kind of warm feeling you get that you belong. At the last part of the run, when I slowly met up with all my team mates and they ran the last lap with me, I felt energized and with them running with me, I had the kind of feeling that they would support me and encourage me in any situation. I'm just following my intuition, and I definitely hope it's right =).

After the run, when we gathered at the tool shed, Alex wanted to talk to the team. He wanted to quit OAC because of the problems he was facing. We all talked to him for a while and let him make his decision. I'm so glad he was strong enough to chose to stay for I couldn't bear it if any member was to quit the team now. We are a family! The phrase 'We've got your back' is there. However, there definitely are times when we quarrel and disagree. Well, if we didn’t, then that would be a little too unrealistic.

Next, was 3 times of the log obstacle, carrying our backpacks and the 90kg log. I was so fatigue but everyone was working so hard, so I did the best I could as well. Those are one of the times when all of us are panicking to reach the time limit that we start shouting at each other to communicate. With everyone worn out by the 10km run, our tempers were running short and we were easily irritated. However, seeing the guys work so hard to carry the log while running from destination to destination, it really made me have the will to put in all my effort to help lighten the load or take more load so that we could complete the obstacles faster. Time was essential during log obstacle, therefore, everyone worked very hard together, and even though we were rather short tempered, we still gave it our best attempt. I felt a surge of pride for Kimberly, Samantha and Yin Wei who continued to persevere even though they had injuries. That was truly showing the Oacian spirit.

Subsequently, it was time for camp craft. We were to build the structure 'suicide window'. That consisted of 4 square lashes, and 2 round lashes. We had to eat our standard lunch as well within that 1h20min. Sadly, we did not manage to complete it even though given 10mins extension. Our punishment was to run the track within 2mins. We failed till the last round. We had to run 3 times. My goodness... I felt so faint, breathless and dizzy. I was so scared. Thanks to Kar Gea who made me compose myself. Well, we didn't manage to do the structure as well as planned, so... it was wash-up time then we headed back to the long jump area.

There is a track line there and we had to build a human pyramid. Wei Kheam, Wai Kit, Kai Sheng, Eng Wei and Li Yuan were at the bottom. Then the rest, I couldn't remember because we were all rushing to accomplish it within the given time. That was rather interesting, the lower height form of cheerleading, only difference, I was at the top of the pyramid instead of the back supporter. Next activity was the conveyer belt. Gosh.. that was.. er.. painful, yet oddly fun if you consider being squashed till you scream to be fun. Haha.. we were supposed to hold hands and roll towards the sand area. Two rows of six, one on top of the other, and roll without letting go of our hands. I was getting stomach cramps from all the shouting and laughing that went on. Eng Wei, Wei Kheam and Wai Kit were hilarious. I was in between Alex and Wai Kit and every time someone went over me, I felt so winded. Once we reached the sand area, I ate sand. *Shudder* Haha, all in all, it was rather fun, one of the weird team bonding games seniors make juniors do.

Then after the fun, we had to do push-ups. One push up for every letter, and one for each word completed. That was our hand over pledge. In total, that's about 161 push-ups. My hands and knees were so sore and numb from putting my weight on the roughness of the track.

I had to leave early for my dance class, however, no matter how tough the training had been, I always look forward to the next OAC training with zest and enthusiasm as no matter what toughness and hardship we have to go through, I know my team mates will be there for me always.

In the end, what I will come to cherish about OAC and benefit from OAC in the future is the strong bond of friendship formed between the team, being able to take the mental and physical toughness that I will definitely come across in life. OAC has not only taught me to be strong physically, but emotionally as well. I find that extremely important, a lesson than one cannot learn simply from reading a book. Besides that, the ‘dare-to-try’ spirit is of extremely vital when it comes to taking chances, for if you do not dare to try, you may never know what you are missing out on.

To my team mates, Samantha, Amanda, Yan Ling, Yin Wei, Kimberly, Li Yuan, Liesel, Wei Kheam, Eng Wei, Kai Sheng, Alex, Wai Kit, Thank you so much. You guys rock =D

`+._ Quiz Results! _.+`

I just took some quizzes for fun, and decided to share them with you ^^ haha, bear in mind, these results aren't always acurate =P


Ok you are a romantic anime girl and you love and
care for a lot of people.There is no evil in
you soul or your heart.Though sometimes people
don't feel the same way as you do you keep on
trying to change their mind.You love to help
people out and you are always happy.Keep on
trying to make the whole world smile because
you know smiles are contagious ^_^.Oh and if it
seems like there is nobody who could love you
as much as you could love them it doesn't
matter the thing is that the only thing that
matters is that he cares and loves you and it
doesn't matter how much well maybe it does but
don't set you standards to high cuz then you'll
find nobody

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)





H:

Your Beauty liesin Serenity. Calm, inspiring, and nearly always
level-headed. You have apeaceful appearance, people know they can trust you
and come to you for advice.You probably have a soothing and beautiful voice to
match you and you are seenas a mature, motherly figure. You don't show much
emotion which may make youappear emotionless and distant at times, but you
are most likely a veryempathetic individual. You keep your head in bad
situations and are calm even ingood ones. You probably wear more flowing clothing
in light pastel colors andone of your most beautiful feature is your smooth
and young face. Some peoplemay even be inspired simply by your presence, you
would make a great mediator ornegotiator as people know they can trust and count
on you for a peacefulsolution.

Some ThingsThat Represent You:

Element:Water, Wind Animal: Swan Color:
Blues, Greens, Pastels Song:Only Time by Enya Expression: Reassuring
Smile

Gemstone:Amethyst Mythological Creature: Elfin Kind
Planet: Neptune Hair Color: Light Blonde Eye Color:Blue

Quote: "Peace and trust take years to build and
seconds to shatter."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..




Aphrodite/Eros

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??




You are the Spirit of Hope. Whenever someone is
feeling down, they merely have to think of you
to make them happy again. You have the ability
to simply radiate happiness. You can make
friends quickly because your strong point is
your amazingly friendly nature which naturally
people want to be with. You think about the
best in everything, a total optimist, you won't
have any trouble getting a worthy person to
shae your life with!

Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!)




Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.

What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!




You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.(If you can't see tje
pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)

What season are you? (pics)




you are a winter fairy. your well known but don't
always hang out with the cool kids. you love
bold colors and your nice most of the time.

what type of fairy are you? with beautiful pix, music, and a stunning background!!!!




Unique, mystical, insightful and beautifulYou are a Snow sprite. Mysterious, and alluring you
naturally attract people to you, your like a
people magnet even though you most often wish
to be alone. Your love for cold climates and
snow has given you an insight into the beauty
few see. While most see bland white you see a
forest or blanket of sparkling white beauty. To
you life is something precious and you intend
to figure out its mysteries. You are very
mature and don't waste your intelligence on
childish games or people not worth your time
which can make you seem arrogant at times but
you are really just intent on saving your time
for better things. Your soul is very beautiful
if not a little shut up, you keep your emotions
hidden from everyone and therefore they don't
know what your capable of. You are a living
fantasy.

.::=What type of Mythical Sprite are you?=::. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-




You like the sweet, shy type.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to?