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Hihi~ I know some people don't like friends, relatives and family members to go and see a performance that he or she is in, because he or she feels shy and afraid what his or her friends would think(care too much bout what friends think), but I like it alot! I am so glad that my whole family is going to support me at our school's musical "Journey", my mum, dad, grandma and grandpa are all going. Whats more, my Uncle, Aunty and other Grandpa are going! =D Don't know whether my father's side family members want to go or not. Hope they do =)! In a way it means ALOT to me to have my family, relatives and friends support! My friends going are... hmZ~ Vanessa(thank you!!!) so far only. The others complain too ex, but they are considering, hahaZ~ Haven't ask all also. I have seen the script and can say that the Musical will not be boring I can assure you, in fact, it will be really interesting, from my point of view that is. Friday is the day we are getting our report cards back, worried actually, but I heard that I got top 10 in class, so if its true, then I'm satisfied. *sighs* Just remembered that this Saturday have the through-train thing at Temasek JC... My parents and teachers encourage me to go, but personally, I do not want to leave and am not ready to leave Temasek Secondary. If I go for the through-train thing, I will have to leave Temasek next year at Secondary 3! No thank you. Well, Vanessa stopped by to pass me the tickets to her school's Chinese Orchestra performance tomorrow night. Sadly no one accompany me. *sob* Just kidding =) Like I said, if the performance is really that bad, I'll drown myself in music from my mp3. Oh yes, last night i checked out the Sims2 website to know more about it and now I am DYING for it to come out. It is just so cool!!! Compared to THE SIMS, it is so much more interesting!!! Go and check out the website. (Click on Sims2) It's the best!!! The sad thing is that it will only come out in September. I can't wait that long!!! (but I have to *sobs*) Luckily I didn't find out about it last year or else the waiting for Sims2 to come out would have killed me!!(not literally). Today I have already finished my Maths homework now organising English file.. Oh well, I don't have much more to say already, see you~!

=[ tHoUgHtS fOr ThE dAy ]=



Hi, I seperated the issues for today because I wanted to start what I am going to say on a fresh entry. Well, in my past entries, I remember writing about the sheild around my heart right? I must say since those incidents in which I wish never to experience again, right now, I am perfectly happy the way I am. My friends and I have kind of made up and we're back on talking terms and "pally" terms again. But I do know for one thing that some people in the class are backstabbing me, people who were once close to me, I bear no grudges against them, just hope we can go through the remaining part of the year peacefully, however, that in a way is like asking for a miracle, but, miracles do come true right? I'd rather not backstab and talk bad about people now, but rather look at the situation more fairly, and sometimes I feel so pissed off, but I keep those feelings to myself, but sometimes, the feelings show on my face. Some people say things jokingly but those words actually hurt me alot, its just that I pretend its no big deal becuase I don't want to make such a fuss. I am really glad to have made up with my friends. Right now, what others say about me that is negative, I shut one ear and ignore the comment. Sometimes its better. No stress. No fuss. No troubles. If only it was that simple right?Unfortunately, life is not so easy. Some people in class happy than talk to me, not happy, show black face. Sometimes I ask myself why I still forgive them so easily, but right up to now, I still can't come up with the reason. Call me gullible and dumb, I just forgive too easily, thats a weak point for me in a way, but a strenght too. This "weakness/strenght" makes people take advantage of me sometimes and make use of me, and when I realise that, it really hurts me, but what can I do, huh... Sometimes I just really get so pissed off with some of my friends for taking me for granted, it's quite common. The feeling of being used it lousy. I'll stop talking for now, I think I have said enough. I'm not pin-pointing a person, but just saying how I feel about the way my friends treat me sometimes. ciaoZ~

=[ nOrMaL dAy ]=



Hi, only came back from school at 5 plus today and I'm so tired. Had choir and saw the choir schedule *horrified*. There are so many days with the time 9am-6pm. That is 9 hours long. Oh my Goodness! And the days nearing the Musical, we will have to stay at Kallang Theatre till 10pm. Gosh, I'm going to be so exhausted. When I came back my stomach was queasy and I felt like puking, so I had a nap. Now Mrs Loke gives us tickets to sell for the musical and I'm advertising it here, $20 and $30 tickets available to be bought, the musical is very interesting, please consider, alot of effort has been put into it. If you are interested, just approach me or any other choir member and you can get your tickets, thank you! Not that I think anyone would read it here you know. *laughs* Now that exams are over, just as I thought that I can slack abit, our kind teacher especially the kindest of all Ma Lao Shi just has to go and give us more lovely homework. Haha, this reminds me of the Literature paper, in the unseen poem "Homework, I Love You!" I kind of slack, like my biji for the first time this year, I did not do, and zuoye also have not done. I decide to do it over the weekends, I just really feel so lazy. And I think I'll have an early night today, I'm always half asleep in class, nothing much more to say already, good night~

=[ SoLeM fEeLiNgS ]=



Hello, sorry for not updating for so long. These few days I have been constantly watching Korean dramas. The first one I watched is "Glass Shoes". This drama made me cry so much, especially the part when the guy died, nevermind, I'm talking bits and pieces from the drama that I'm sure makes completely no sense to you. sorry... These few days by watching the dramas, by reading different things, makes me see how unfair the world is, it gets me thinking that the world we live in cannot be happy all the time. So i guess I still have to look for that silver lining in a cloud at all times. Some people are so 'bitchy' you know! I mean seeing from the Korean drama, even just by watching what she did, I feel like going up to her and slapping her! All the things I heard, watched and read all make me feel so solem.. Its as though some people have no heart, why can't they see that being evil leads us to nowhere but our own dooms? I think watching these drama serials make me wake up and realise the world is not as innocent, as much as I want it to be. I just finishes reading 'Outsiders' for the second time, and am already feeling so solem. My goals this holiday is to re-watch all the favourite Korean Dramas, do well and hope to win for Yes! competition, reach what is expected of my group and I for entreprenuership for our school's musical and one more private thing that I'm not ready to reveal yet. Oh yes, my results. I am so disappointed with them.



Here's what I got(just for the paper itself):

English - 60%

Chinese - 55%

Mathematics - 79%

Science - 83%

Literature - 68%

History - 68%

Home Economics - 74.5%



Pretty pathetic right? Only have two A1s, and the home econs missed A1 by half a mark! I am so disappointed with my History marks because I studied the hardest for that. Even though the night before the exam I was coughing and sneezing and every cough made me feel so weak that I had to lie down for a moment, I still carried on revising,but only got a B3... Oh well, I can't do anything about it now, just put in even more effort for Geography to make up for it. *thinking* Is the entry long enough already? I don't know but I feel like watching Korean dramas again now, see you!~ *smiles and waves*

=[ wHat A dAy ]=



Hi, sorry for not updating for four days, was too busy playing SIMS. It rocks! However, it is so difficult to advance a level, oh well... Today was nothing but boredom, for me that is, some other people might not have found it as boring as I did. I'm not going to say anything else about today because although I always try to look on the bright side of life, but, I still cannot figure out any good part of today. My head ached, my stomach ached and I was so dead tired. Well, I found out something yesterday which made a big difference to my life, a bad difference, not good, didn't get good sleep, maybe thats why I was so down in school today. Never expected that thing to happen, but it has, so I can't do anything but accept it. *sighs* I am so... Oh nevermind, nothing much to say already, see you~

=[ eXaMs ArE oVeR!~ ]=



Finally the sickening exams are over, then why don't I feel elated? I don't know, it's like, I don't feel any change, maybe because the paper today was not brilliantly easy for me. Oh well, I'll get used to the idea of the exams being over soon. Today Mrs Loke give some of us the Temasek Junior College Through-Train( I don't know how it's spelt) form and I was kind of brooding over it. I mean yes, there would be many advantages, but, if I go for it, I would have to leave Temasek next year, and I don't think I'm ready for that yet. *sigh* I don't know, my parents encourage it, but I don't know, I'm kinda confused in a way. jin tui liang nan. Oh well, I guess I shouldn't think so much about it, but it's hard not to. My SIMS irritatingly cannot be played, so I had to re-install. Have to borrow two versions from my friends. Today I bought the SIMS superstar and making magic, so decided that I'd rather lose all the data inside than to not be able to play for the whole holiday. However, when I read the instruction booklet, it stated that there were ways for me to be able to save my buildings and families, I tried it, but don't know the results yet, oh well, must wait till my friends lend me, I want to install in order. I think I have wrote enough for today, see you~! *smiles and waves*

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Hello, I just finished my revision for Maths, had prepared for it whole day today, went to the library to borrow books too. All in all, today, i can just remember studying and studying. Oh, at dinner time, my Grandmother told some Chinese idiom like phrases and made me laugh so much till my sides hurt. I literally laughed till tears came out. It was hilarious. I don't think there is anything else, so, see you~ *smiles*

=[ cOnGrAtUlAtIoNs MiSs ChOy!~ ]=

I just want to congratulate my Primary 6 Maths teacher, Miss Choy, now known as Mrs Goh, on her promotion to vice-principal! Thank you Li Ling for telling me. =D

=[ tYpIcAl StAy HoMe DaY ]=



Well, today nothing interesting happened at all, so I really don't know what to write about, but, i'll think of something soon. I just had my piano lessons and managed to clear two songs! *grins* Unfortunately, had to learn another two. *sigh* But since I managed to clear those songs, my teacher promised that she would bring 'Canon in D' and a Schubert piece for me to play next week. I habe been dying to play 'Canon in D' for a long time and the Schubert piece is from my favourite Korean drama Summer's Scent, it's the best! Okay, I don't think you all want to hear how great it is again right? I've been repeating how great it is on msn and on this blog. Sorry to bore you all, but it's really great! Oops, here I go again. I've watched it about 2-3 times in 2 weeks, and now I'm watching it again, not right now, because in 5 minutes time I have to go and do my Maths paper 1. (time: 4:36pm)



(time: 6.35pm) Hello, back again after doing the Maths paper 1 practice that Mr Lim gave us. Well, talked to Vanessa and my other friends as well in between.



(time: 9:07pm) Hi, just finished dinner, I watched part of Lion King on Disney Channel, then I switched to watch the Lion King 3 dvd. Yes, Lion King 3 is out. Its about Timon and Pumba's life, how they met, how they found their home, how they met Simba, etc etc. Its very funny because they show how Timon and Pumba's actions in Lion King 3 fit into the original movie, very interesting and comical. I just found my Lion King sing-along CD. It's been ages since i had it, bout 10 years, glad I could find it, listening to it now, it's nice you know *smiles* I'll update other things later. *waves*

=[ GoOdLuCk To: ]=



Sorry Val... GoOdLuCk tO yOu tOo!~ And to Xiu Mei, to hm.. Shi Jia, Tanya, Jeannie, Min Shian, Sarah, Kirstie, Erlina, Lay Lian, Faith, Denise, Candice and Pavan. Who else is there in GMSS? Oh, goodluck to Nelson Phua, Edwin Foo, Henry, Justin, Jonathan, Isaac, Marcus, Eugene, Junquan, Nelson Lee, Kah Yong(what's his new name? I forgot) um... Jermyn, Luke, Dennis Lim, Dennis Kwek, Tze Wei, Andreas, Kevin, Jiun Khai, Jun Hiu, Victor, Aaron and Kenneth. All these are my Primary School Friends. Oh well, even if they can't see it, bless them goodluck in my heart then. Erm, and to MSQ, Mrs Soh, Miss Choy, and so on so forth. Did i miss anyone out? And goodluck for last paper to all Temasekians, too many to name. *chins up!* `tata~

=[ oH mY gOoDnEsS ]=



Well, the blog website has changed now.. hm, i think i prefered the previous one, because i'm so used to it. Unfortunately, my SIMS still cannot load properly, so sad, during holidays if one day i have to stay at home for 24hours, i would be bored to death without it, i guess i could play gunbound, but... Today's Science papaer was not too bad, but the last section was a little difficult. I must say these few months my life kind of experienced alot. Around my heart there used to be a shield but things happened and the shield got so thin, it broke and the sword pierced right through. But as time passed, thanks to my Mum and Vanessa, the shield was slowly built back again, stronger than ever. I hope i am not going to experience anything that will cause the shield to break again. Time again it will be slightly shredded, but slowly built back again because i don't think about it so much. Although it is still sore, i'm sure one day it will recover. At the beginning of the year, I thought this year would be the happiest year of my secondary school life, however, things changed. Maybe it's better. All i can say about my life now is, " it's not paradise, but it's mine and i'm satisfied with it". Seeing some people shine such optimistic views on life, I have decided to pick up mine as well and start anew. It's not that i don't trust some people, but since a few weeks ago, well, I learnt a few things, what I learnt is too personal to say out, which is now why i keep to myself, in a way, it's safer. The world is a 'bitchy' place (sorry to use such a word, but it's true, i see and hear it with my own ears and eyes). Reading back on my past entries, I can still remember how depressed I was, so many things happened at one time and I almost brokedown, thank goodness for my Mother and Vanessa again, (really appreciate it, you two are the best!) if not i don't know what i would have done. Do you know the chinese phrase "yu guo tian qing"? well, I guess "yu guo le", now "tian qing le". In a way, I am enjoying my life right now, enjoying it alot, in a much different way than before. Last time, i relied on my friends to give me happiness, now, i rely on myself. It's a great feeling after some time, so i have learnt to accept reality and cleared my mind, now I'm fine. Reminds me of a nursery song, the song 'You are my Sunshine'. Oh, and I just realised how atrocious my English language on this blog was, I am so disgruntled about it, well, now changing back to using proper English is still not too late, got to learn to be refined, and not let peers around influence me. *smiles* SeE yOu~

=[ cHaNgE oF hEaRt ]=



Now i decided to use my blog to improve my English which seems to be deproving. =) . Today when i gave my mum her present, she was so delighted with it, made me feel so appreciated and warm, thank you mummy! =D The hours spent working on it was worth it after all, and i was afraid she would'nt like it~ Around 12 plus, we left for my father's mother's house for Mother's Day gathering, all my cousins were there, but all older than me by so much, a bit of communication gap, i'm the baby of the family at my father's side.. Then rushed home to catch the 3.30pm show on DisneyChannel. Up till now still can't find a suitable music for my blog, cannot find any music html website actually.. After more Science revision, we went out for dinner with my mother's parents to the Singapore Cricket Club, since it was Mother's Day, i purposely dressed up for it, me and my mother did actually =D My grandma comented that she couldn't recognise me, guess i looked older than i was~ Oh good, now the musical show 'Annie' is going to start, haven't seen it for a long time, but got to do revision first before watching, goodluck to everyone for tomorrow's exam! I decided to limit my blog entries to just 10 instead of 50, makes the page very long, if you want to read past 'issues', just click the archives below the tagboard, thanks~ well, i have nothing much more to say, GoOdNiGhT~

=[ cOnClUdInG tHe DaY ]=



o well... tml is mother's day.. spent 1+ hours on my mother's card, hope she likes it =D anywayZ, tired.. i wanna wake up at 8+ tml to watch the disney channel's mother's day special... good luck all for the last 2 paper! to kirby lumpy n tabby, goodluck for the upcoming exams! oya, once again, i say tis, SuMmEr'S sCeNt RoX!!!~ its not summer's fragrance, they interpret it as summer's scent.. o well.. i prefer the word fragrance though... ^^ listening to the music now.. love em, esp 'ni de xiang qi' its my FAV SONG! n the only song which i listen to now n am able to feel happy and carefree ^^ nothing to say le~ goodniteZ~

=[ sCiEnCe ReViSiOn WeBsItE ]=



wpbschoolhouse webbie ^^

=[ sOrRy, WaS lAzY tO uPdAtE *bLuSh* ]=



hi! well... home ec paper not THAT difficult... maths paper i couldnt finish... =( then fri had lit paper.. not that bad la... but, all in all, this time exams not easy... worried bout my marks... YES! left sci n maths then OVER! booya! yesterday play one whole day SIMS.. then now, when i insert the cd in, after loading, when it is supposed to appear at the neighbourhood scene, the game exits itself, i dunno why, dunno how to solve... =( *sobs* anyone know pls tell me at my tagboard! i remember encountering the same prob b4, but forgot what i did, i hope is not reinstall!!! i spent soooo long building the vacation spots, old towns, n downtown... creating the families... =( o well... just now watch tv... after lunch starting revision... tml i station myself to glue my eyes on the tv, all the mother's day programme on disney channel!!! at night have sound of music and annie =D yays! anyway, nothin to say le... oya, bought something from the avatar in GB, dunno whether regret or not, o well... i'll learn to like it =P, last night slept at 2+ nearly 3, dunno how i lasted.. hahaZ... went to try on new contacts, but vision not focused, so they test this test that, order new pair of contacts, ask me next week collect.. so ma fan right? hahaZ~ cyAz~

=[ dIfFiCuLt! ]=



hmz... home econs not easy to study leh... or izzit cos i lazy, shld be bah.. haiz... my head pain seh... exam strrreeesss! the only thing i am sure of for hm ec is fine dining thingies... the rest i dunno... my head now mixed up.. dun feel like studying anymore home econs, what is rancidity?!?! aiya, can be prevented by anti-oxidants or something liddat, I DUNNO LA!!! so much to remember bout hm ec... shld i be good??? hmz... beginning to think that i should, o well, might as well since got no more home econs, i guess i would wanna do well or else will regret when get results... okay, enuff toking here, going back to studies, cyaZ~



p.s okok en, wun call u IT pro anymore, sorry ok?

=[ 2nD dAY oF eXaMs ]=



hihi~ today's history test ok la... its not difficult, but they didnt give us enough time to complete it.. i write until my hand wanna break, write for 2hr15mins non-stop, only stop to stretch arms for bout 10secs. during exam sweating man... after exam my brain so drained... last nigh very very late sleep cos got exam jitterZ, before managing to get to sleep, keep thinking about history until it made no sense, made me sooo scared... lucky today still an remember, hope i can score A1 for history...after exams wait till 11 to copy the hmec book ans for test paper, another round of copying, so tiring i tell u... n so much to copy... lot of ppl dun seem to care bout hm econs as much, i care bout it not as much either, but still care, so after dinner start work le... haiz... 3 exams down, 5 more to go... GREAT. cant wait for them to finish, then can RELAX! woot! hahaZ... ah... the only irritating thing is my stuppid cough n cold... not as bad as yesterday, but still pain... becos of the cough, my eardrums oso pain... haiZ, wad to do... o well... last night slept in study room, tonight shld be the same bah... cos i sick, cannot sleep air-con room or else will cough cough cough... anywayZ, i gt nothing to say le... cYaZ~

=[ 1sT dAy Of eXaMz ]=



haiz haiz haiz... today so cham... eng exam still ok, but the chi exam was a KILLER! n i was coughing n sniffling through the whole thing... now still coughing like hell... ah... throat so pain... came back watched lion king 3 then had a nap, juz finish studying chap 10 of history... FINALLY. ah.... stupid cough. hate it... anywayZ, nothing to say le... cyaZ~

=[gReAt, wHaT a TiMe To FaLl SiCk, cOuGhInG n SnEeZiNg, HaIz ]=



omg... my cough is back n just as bad... cough cough sneeze sneeze throat pain... long way of exams coming up, im feeling so sick. DIE LE! ah... jus sneezed... n my throat hurt... ahhhh.... watching land b4 time 3 oso... jus finish history chap 7... nothing to say le... i 2night maybe no time come online, will be studying hard for chi.. 2pm i go for 3 hrs of chi tuition... *sigh* haiz... bye~

=[ sTiLl SufFeRiNg FrOm MuScLe AcHe, aDd A bLoCkEd NoSe! aRgH ]=



heyz~ morning went for two hr tuition of maths, my brains cells so drained up... then went to eat roti prata... went to ah ma hse to rest, ended up napping, woke up wanted to go for tuition, called yang lao shi to check first, no one answer the phone... then end up remembered that today labour day, he's not open, so couldnt go for chi tuition, ended up go parkway cos mum needa buy stuff... then i went to OP cos now the shirts on sale, bought two tees n one pants... I LIKE THEM!!! hehe... then... went to the optics shop to see em about my contacts, etc... after that went to MPH n read while waiting for mum... read Nancy Drew files... nice leh! mum called ask me meet her, i went to precious moments buy a gift for mother's day first b4 meeting her @ valu$... got so many things to carry, so heavy, my arms so pain, no strength... stupid muscle ache...cannot even lift arms properly to change... haiz... now sniff sniff, sneeze sneeze, cant breathe properly... sigh... *achoo!* not in aircon oso *achoo!* =( *double sigh* o well... came back played GB awhile, then go do history revision... juz finish chap 5... haiZ, still got 6,7,8,9,10, izzit? or onli up to 9, i dunno la... up to merger there... juz ate some choc cake, SHOULDNT HAVE! feeling fatter. haihaihai... muz tell my maid not to tempt me into eating that... haha~ anyway, im not slacking anymore, so after awhile more i gtg do more studying!!! cyAz~