Wow.. 2 posts in one day.. lol.. well.. went over to my grandma's house just now.. saw all my previous's house furniture over there.. tinge of sadness.. Then i went to her room to look at the photographs of my childhood days. I really miss them. When things were seemingly so perfect.. My granddad, 'ahkong' was still around.. I had a lovely childhoood.. went to so many places.. loved by so many in the family.. Lol.. was so cute! till about 6? then i boomed. Lol.. thank goodness the change.. Hai.. i dunno.. but looking at those photos always make me tear.. the memories of yesteryears still fresh in my mind.. Still packing for sea expe.. spent so much time doing tht -.-" lol.. well.. just came back from dinner.. guess what? this uncle sitting at the same table as us at the hawker centre started talking about the quality of food in Singapore, that people no longer know how to discern good and bad food.. haha.. geez.. i just smiled and nodded, my grandma politely answered him.. lol.. ok.. random but yeah.. anyways.. back to packing.. feeling better le.. also dunno why.. stupid heart. haha~ cya!

Argh.. This poem is titled...

You’re back again I see, please stop haunting me

It’s you again I see
Back to mess with me
Just when I’m feeling fine
You sneak up from behind
Bringing me down memory lane
Making me go insane
Why can’t you go away
And leave me to my daily play
Papers filled with memories
Stirs up images I don’t want to see
It’s back again
That feeling of doubt
Dangling the bait in front of my eyes
Causing my heart to wander from where it resides
I wonder when that day will be
When these emotions will vanish from thee
I hope it’ll be soon
That I can be once again over the moon
I hate feeling like this
I really do
So please I beg you
Stop haunting me, please do.

Try and decode this.. hai.. don't think many people can decode it fully.
AH WELL....
LIFE!

Lol... I'm also not sure... so confused.. darn these feelings..


WHATEVER. I hope it'll go away soon.. =(

hmm... i dunno how im feeling now... just went for dance by myself.. realized i've been taking lot of public transport on my own these days.. lol.. i am pampered in that aspect i know.. my mum's not in town now.. miss her.. hai.. going through what im experiencing now.. I really understand that a lot of people interpret things from what they see on the surface. My primary and secondary school friends thought i had a seemingly rich family. Strike one! Seemingly happy family, Strike 2! Am very pampered and blah blah, Strike 3!! You're out! So dun make stupid conclusions without solid evidence. *makes face* but i shall be contetn with what i have. I am. I just wish some things were different.. hai... ok, a lot of things.. I heard something that day, and it just amazes me how some people can do things behind other people's back, admit they're wrong, and in the end, turn back and say they didn't do anything wrong. This is called, going back on one's word, and whoever does these kind of things.. i can't find a proper word to describe these kind of people. No integrity? Low? Selfish? I don't know... these words don't seem harsh enough.
not worth respecting i must say. I want my childhood back. I want the pure, happy and carefree days back.. it's 10.. my study schedule has more or less been met today.. i hate studying alone.. its so so so boring! then my mind will drift and drift.. =( i need someone to make me feel happy and carefree like i used to feel.. where is that someone? does he/she even exist? hai.. i miss my mummy... is it exam blues? or just plain not happy? this is so unlike me... I don't usually mope, i don't usually sigh, i don't usually cry. even dance doesn't make me feel happy and full of life anymore... only being with people who cheer me up can.. blah... but that is something unavoidable i guess.. if u know my current situation.. I don't think many know.. It's not something i would love to share. But if u analyze close enough and know me quite well.. I'm sure u can see where my troubles lie.. oh well.. i'll try to make the next post a cheery one.. adios..