hmm.. benefits of having a laptop in class.. can surf the net when the lesson gets boring.. like for social studies and eugene has just tried to type something random on my com. Lol.. hmm.. Maths test tmr, chem and LA is over.. have 5 more subjects before the common tests are over.. Now that Miss Cheah mentions it.. I really think i want to try out for KI.. Well... I'm bored, so i picked this off Joo Wen's blog.. haha

Favourite Colour: shades of pink, and white.
Favourite Food: nothing with veggie and seafood. i love meat! heh..
Favourite Song: currently: Hips Don't Lie and Breaking Free
Movie: currently: High School Musical!!! many more..
Favourite Sport: umm.. outdoor activities count? don't have fav sport.. not a sports fanatic..
Favourite Day of the Week: Everyday's fine i guess.. Friday's the best.
Favourite Ice Cream: Hip Hop Jelly and Magnum!

Current
Current mood: rather bored.. trying to stay awake
Current Taste: huh?
Current Clothes: black polo tee and school shirt.
Curent Time: 4.15 (15 more minutes to end of lessons!)
Current Annoyances: the upcoming tests.
Current Thoughts: i want the holidays back.. sleeeeepp.

First
First Best Friends: First as in like in kindergarten and primary school?? Abygail and Jolene
First Crush: nelson phua (haha)
First Movie: should be snow white i think.. one of the disney princesses movie..
First Music: no idea..

Lasts
Last Cigarette: im not a smoker..
Last Drink: water (best drink ever)
Last Crush: ha! for me to know and u to find out.
Last Phone Call: um.. Syak.. asking her about LA grouping.
Last CD played: Jay Chou's November Chopin

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: nope.
Have you ever broken the law: depends on your definition of breaking the law =P
Have you ever been arrested: nope
Have you ever skinny-dipped: NO
Have you ever been on TV: yeah..
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: definately NOT

5 things you are wearing: hairband.hairtie.clothes.ring.shoes.
4 things you done today: gone to school. had pe. studied LA. gone for lunch.
3 things you can hear right now: eugene and marcus talking, vivien talking, mumblings around the class, typing sound of the keyboards.
1 thing you do when you are bored: read

Lol.. ok..lesson's over! =D adios amigos!

oh gosh.. its like 3am now.. im so pooped.. just finished (almost) revising periodic table trends.. ughh... left half of the test's topics to study for chem test.. just found out i am also going to have a bio test next week. BRILLIANT. 5 tests next week.. almost all i only found out about this week. *going nuts* Stupid. Nevermind.. I can do it, and i will do it.. I will study for it. Already came up with a timetable for studying. Went to the airport today to study Lang Arts with Jane.. Really helps to have someone else to study with, esp for lang arts. Maths A and Maths B, Chinese, Chem, Bio, Lang Arts, Geog test to go.. *Groans* I can and I will =) adios amigos..

p.s. great, really helps tht i've got a cold and cough now.. just as school is going to start *yippe*

okay. its final. i need to loose weight.
fat fat fat! need to tone up.. need to cut down on junk and fattening food.
=( feel faaaatttt. this sounds so bimbotic. but it's true!! i need to loose weight.
hmm.. how ironic is it that some people's confidence comes from how they look and how they are accepted by people? i guess im naturally quiter among people im not close to and lack the confidence of doing so. *fakes a sob* haha.. i blame it on my past as an overweight child. lol.. serious.. people use to call me fatty in primary school. *grumbles* didn't care at that time.. now i regret. i use to just eat and eate and eat and eat. grrr.. thank goodness i woke up in secondary school and decided to loose some weight. ahaha. lost about 15kg since i was a fatty. I promise myself i will never go there again. never never never. but.. back to the point. I still need to loose weight now. hai.. i need to get over the temptation of food and get into the discipline of exercising even more. ah.. 2.4km coming.. so i shall train for that. train incline pull-ups also..

routine everyday:
situps (200)
dips (100)
inclined ups pulls (50)
crunches (to 2 songs)
pushups (100)
run around condo with lady (my dog)
dance dance dance!
*hope i can and will keep to it.. no excuses!* should food still be controlled then?
I looovveee food. but at least i don't live to eat yet.. haha. and just as im writing this post.. im reaching for another chocolate.. *sigh* dove amicelli is such a devil!!! lol.. ok. if i don't buy. means i won't get to eat. so after this box is finished. i WILL NOT buy anymore. no more late night snacks as well. =(

heh.. sorry.. mindless rantings i call this. feeling quite energized and high from dancing. Segundo curso (grade 2 Flamenco) today was FUN! tiring though. then just dancing crazily to the music at home also does help to make you feel high and happy. Wondering whether i should join modern dance club next year or just let oac be my only pdp. shall ask jane for opinion. anyways. im feeling a little guilty... my studies haven't really been touched yet. Need to study chem periodic table and LA notes. oh ya.. and maths a n maths b.. test on these subs when school reopens.. need to concentrate le.. adios amigos.

*geez.. this post is so... bimbotic.. ew*

p.s. i put a video of Shakira's Hips Don't Lie. I am currently in love with that song.

Hmm.. just realize how much more different I am from some people..
i think i should get out more.. like.. socialize more..
i guess its never been in my nature to be a social butterfly unlike some people, but i guess one should still make the effort to smile more easily and confidently and make friends more easily huh? right. easier said than done. this should take time.. but im determined to be more open and involved in activities outside of oac. That would actually be hard to do. TJ life without oac everyday. or without seeing the oacians everyday *ouch* hard to imagine.. i guess one of the reasons i dunno so many people is also cause JC life has so far revolved so much around oac. yup. how true.. Next year.. things will be so much more different.. dreading it, yet looking forward to it with anticipation. I'm still figuring out what to do during term 3.. my goals.. what there is to look forward to.. etc.. no way am i going to just study study study. but what is there?? i shall find something. last year.. it was fun and wonderful bonding time with oacians.. this year.. it shall be a venture into the unknown. sounds so drama. haha.. ok.. hai.. seriously.. i don't know what to expect from life anymore.. I don't know at this point in time what there is to work towards and to look forward to. sad right? it's ok.. i'll find something to spark me on to enjoying life again. i have yet to find out what is anthropology. haha.. may be my future. for now, its bedtime! adios amigos~

punishment day for the juniors today...
what can i say? the things we've been saying still hasn't registered in the minds yet. is there another way??? i just can't comprehend why..
we know that they are bonded as a team enough to really care about one another.
that was exactly how we felt at this point in time last year.. but there were so many things we misunderstood the seniors for. I guess only when the juniors are in our shoes, then they'll see the rationale and reasons for what we do. we always use to criticize the seniors etc, only now do we realize the meaning of it. I'm so happy everytime the seniors from previous batches come back. Just talking to them and sharing experiences is such a fun time.. batch gathering was FUN! stayed up till 1+am talking. The respect i have for them is quite great and i love hearing them relate their experiences and advice. Maybe i look up to my seniors even more than the others in my batch, cause they are.. 3 years older than me? lol.. hardly the matter though, still love talking to them.
When sitting in the oac room today.. a wave of nostalgia hit me.. one of the last few times we will be having meetings, arguements and laughs here. All the tears, pain and sorrow that have been shared within the four walls of the oac room has been such an experience.. I really can't bear to hand over and move on.. but.. life's like that.. hope we'll keep in contact always.. (you guys better come back from time to time!!! don't leave me alone!!! heh)
I think it'll be very interesting to watch the juniors grow and learn if they manage to pass it through handover.. will be a very fruitful learning journey =D
I know the juniors are reading our blogs, and so, have read theirs too, lol. Hm, i've read in your posts that you all will make sure you complete the 72km, glad to hear that.
what i must say it that.. i regret not putting in as much confidence in myself to stand out more in oac in the beginning.. kept looking down on myself cause i was IP. What a wrong mentality. Things shall change and have changed.. this oac experience will only force me to mature even more than i have to.. *groans* haha.. oh well..

nothing else to say le.. gonna read my book.. nights!

love is so unpredictable..
heh.. well.. im just such a romantic.. good or bad.. depends..
watching korean drama.. xia ri xiang qi...
oh geez... if only i had a man who loved me like that.. heh..
*dreams...*
Well... spent the day at tuition, home packing stuff and going out for dinner with dad to ah xin kor kor's place. He's my cousin, and his baby girl Kira, is the CUTEST!!!!!! =D haha.. such a darling.. was the kai xin guo during the funeral for everyone. chubby cheeks.. just wanna pinch them!!! =D =D =D
Hmm... anyways.. nothing much to add.. just found out there's a chem test when school reopens.. sighs.. brilliant.. studying time... adios!!

Well.. tmr's mama's funeral.. hai.. things happen in a blink of an eye.. death is unavoidable.. life must go on. I can't stand the thought of oac instructorship coming to an end.. through this course of 1 and a half years.. i've learnt so much and grown up so much.. together with my teammates.. we always say we'll go through thick and thin.. i hope it is true.. friends that will be forever.. since i know our 'juniors' are reading my blog.. here' a note to you guys: if there are things you don't understand, ask now.. whether or not we finally handover the club.. solely depends on how you perform in your last few trainings with us. try and see things from our point of view, if you were the instructors, how would you expect your juniors to perform? if you can touch your heart and truthfully say that you have given your all and your best, then, you have nothing to be afraid of. If not.. it's time to go and do something about it.. MOST IMPORTANTLY, cherish your teammates =D haha~ they'll be like your family in the next year to come.
adios amigos.. on to my geog essay =)

Don't vent your anger on me.
I know you have suffered a loss. So have I.
How dare you say I have no feelings for her.
I wouldn't have cried so much if I didn't.
Don't accuse me of meaning otherwise.
Don't jump to unreasonable conclusions.
*Fumes*
Don't ask me to grow up.
Think before you say things like that.
I have so much else in thought to lash out.
I shall keep it inside.
Fine.
I shall control.
I understand your feelings.
Still does not give you the right to do what you did.
I normally feel bad when people say they are disappointed in me.
This time.
I wasn't.
I was plain angry.
But i understand how you feel.
So I shall not let emtions overtake my senses.
I will do what I have to.
One last thing,
Don't you dare ever hint that my mum did not do a good job as a mother.

...hai...
I always thought being a child of divorced parents would be fine.
Sometimes.. I ask myself why Im so naive and be able to think that way.
I guess in life... we need to kan kai a bit.
So I shall.
I shall be happy again soon.
Wish my friends were there when I needed to talk.. but its also my fault for not approaching them. cannot expect them to know what im thinking 24/7.
3 strong women of 3 generations. My mum's mother, my mum, and me.
We can get through any difficulties.
We have each other =)
Just for the record: Love you mum, ah ma wo ai ni.

Well... Titans is over. People say it was a success. I feel that it was only ok. But its been a great experience... June Camp is also over. Feeling -> disappointed and dejected. Ming Wen said that we should not think of it as we failed.. But i feel like we did somehow fail as instructors. =( Another blow.. Mama passed away this morning. My dad's mum. Reminded me so much of my beloved ah kong's passing. Hai.. Life. Ok.. this is not a great post. Can't help it. Anyways, just wanted to document some of these events down.