Well.. as predicted.. I'm feeling better than I did that day. Some days are so horrible, some days are just normal, and some days are great. Today was.. kinda boring and stressful at the same time. Rushed to finish doing titans stff till quite late last night.. I feel caught up in the wind of titans frenzy. Hahaha... Hm.. I wish people would stop talking so much about somethings, and actually reflect on the implications and consequences of their words. Annoying really. My piano is coming tmr!!! =D Finally.. haven't played it since I moved house. Miss it.. Ironically.. Feels as though there are some things I have not done, can't figure it out at the moment. My mind is filled with titans and maths.. integration.. *shivers* Been practicing and I hope it hasnt gone to waste. Anyways... Life's as unpredictable as the weather. I want to read some good books.. Wish Dan Brown and Nicholas Sparks wrote more books. They are my all time favourite authors.. Scattered thoughts.. Shows that I should go to bed now.. tired...so... Nights!!!* =)

What a day..
Delta Titans training today.. 55mins.. 7km run.. at least better than 1.04hours. On to log.. Once again.. reinforce the point that.. one person slacks.. everyone gets the pain. Then went to Beta house function with yinwei, kheam and mandy. A friend raised a question.. and a statement.. made me think and reflect.. kind of in a daze right now.. don't exactly know how i'm feeling.. trying to figure it out.

3 things on my mind:

1 --> affect major things
2 --> affect my mood
3 --> affect my curiousity..

I gotta stop denying and start solving the major one.. 2nd one.. hai.. dun think so much le.. 3rd one.. we'll see how things are.
Life's interesting with its twists and turns.. but sometimes.. i wish it was more straightforward. I miss the days of last year.. =( anyways.. i'll figure something out.. make things right again.. i hate the cold war.. but I dunno what's wrong, and I don't know what to do about it. hai. forget it.. stop moping and start business. =)
Since I always ask others to put on a smile.. I should too.. so... *smiles* =D

byebye everyone...*

Just another day~
But.. im feeling so many kinds of emotions.. simple satisfaction.. happiness.. confusion.. doubt.. all in one.. geez.. well.. a blog is so easily accessible.. I somehow dare not place names and deep thoughts here.. so.. I came up with a poem.. don't think its that great.. but just in the mood to write these kind of poems...

The title of this poem is.. "Waiting for It to Show" by me =)

You appeared and lit up my life
Leaving me basking in your glow
Weeks of fun in the sun
Lit my heart aglow
Then the expected occurred
Leaving me full of sorrow
I dared not approach
I dared not reveal
Into the shadows
Putting up a show
Months later,
I look at you and sigh once more,
The question still probing at my heart -
Am I ready to open it up?
New faces appear
New feelings arise
But in the end
They still round the bend
Back home to where you reside
It forces me to wonder
Do we really have a future together?
Standing next to you warms me up
Causing a tingling in my heart
I look at you and smile
Silently questioning your trial
I try to read your gestures
But to no avail and captures
I guess in time I'll know
Holding on and waiting for it to show.

Nights!! ~ ** =D

Titans...
Brings back memories.. There's so much i regret about last year sometimes.. not being as active in oac before april, thus not being fit enough to get any placing for titans.. Not going for june camp cause of the humanities trip.. huh.. Its the time of the year where i guess we start thinking about which directions our friendship will go towards after graduation.. Liesel's gonna go overseas.. guys to army.. girls work or uni.. and i'll still be in school. sigh. I hope we will still keep in touch. I still remember all the tears we shed together, the comfort we provided each other, and will never forget the strong sense of belonging to a family outside home. Opening the door to the oac room is like going home.. Im sure it will be very different next year with the juniors. Shall keep the sobs till handover then.. I realized that poems are a nice way to express one's feelings in the midst of emotion. Interesting to write... Oh yes.. dance class yesterday was hell.. those were some steps! only show one a sequence.. then do le.. lol.. the others all so pro de.. im sure they have had many years of background.. all know how to split, move etc. I felt like a floundering kitten! I hate not being able to split.. *grrrr* oh yes.. I just killed a crockcroach using the srpay and seeing it wriggling helplessly made me feel so so horrible that I had to close the door.. couldn't bear to see it. Hai. Anyways.. relatively normal day.. with tinges of surprises. Haha.. see ya ^^