My Fairytale Fantasy

Here's 28th Oct's entry that i couldn't update.. lol..

Hmm.. don’t know why… listening to the songs on joowen’s blog.. makes me feel so sad.. is it because of what I’ve been feeling recently? I don’t even know how im feeling.. I guess it’s cause im still unsure and confused.. hai.. shall just let nature take its course.. Memories of the past seem to haunt me these few days.. yesterday went to KFC with my grandma to eat.. the one my granddad use to bring us all the time, especially for treats.. My grandmother teared a little.. hai.. it’s been more than a year.. but I still shed tears for him.. oh.. I forgot to thank jw, claud n royce for the hugs that day at the Sennett park.. was really comforting.. =) and jh for accompanying me to Sennett to take a look.. made me able to steer my thoughts away from pure melancholy.. rain.. I love it.. as long as im not trekking… it somehow evokes emotions and feelings.. when im sad.. just standing under the rain feeling it wash over me.. makes me feel as though my worries, sorrows and tears and being washed away.. cleansing the mind body and soul.. when you are in the house, and the rain is falling outside.. its such a cosy and warm feeling.. somehow.. light showers have a calming effect on me.. I don’t know how to describe the feeling.. but it just is.. training today was quite ok.. so so tiring though.. lol.. my toes ached so much.. and I accidentally kicked victors boots (lightly) and my toenail felt as though it was going to drop off.. geez. Anyways.. I don’t really have much else to say… but leave u guys with this message.. there’ always millions of reasons to smile.. you just have to delve deeper to find them sometimes… cheerios! ^^