`+._ Recount of the Kayaking experience in the Storm _.+`

We weren't initally near the rocks, but since the waves started up so quickly, we were all swept near the rocks. Being a weaker kayaker, I could paddle fast enough and guess what? I capsized. The grand senior and Mr Lim helped me back up; I kayaked a few times, and capsized again. This time, it was rather dangerous. I had completely no idea what to do and I thank goodness that Mr Lim was there. It was the first time I've seen Mr Lim panicking and looking so worried. He shouted through the wind for me to get to the left side of his boat, so I did. He tried to let me get back onto the kayak, but the waves were too strong, it was rather impossible. The rocks were about 2m away only, I was so scared I felt like crying, it was so freaky. Mr Lim manoeuvred his kayak to be perpendicular to the rocks and I was at the front of his kayak, he calmly said that we would be fine and that we had to wait for the storm to blow over before we could do anything. I guess seeing him calm made me compose myself. Though I must say, with the rocks being so near, I was really wondering whether I would survive that storm. I could feel the rocks beneath me and so I figured it would be better for me to walk up it when the waves pushed me nearer to the rocks, I'm so glad I felt the rocks beneath or I would have been cut. The luckiest thing is that there was no thunder and lightening, if there was, I would have been a gone case. After awhile Mr Lim said it would be okay to get back on even though the waves were rather strong and the rain still pelting down. I got back on, paddled like crazy and managed to get back! After the whole thing, it was a rather exciting experience. I learnt that in times like this, you have to keep calm in order to survive it, and you have to trust whoever is helping you. It was a most memorable experience yet, one I would not care to experience again, but I’m glad I went through it and got back unscathed. And I would like to thank Mr Lim and the Grand senior for safely helping me get through the whole adventure.

`+._ sO tIrEd.. _.+`

Hi all =D Well... Nothing much happened on Thursday.. The only thing is that I got a sore throat.. *complain*. Now I still have it.. I can't sing and it's kind of depressing. Friday, I wanted to go along with my seniors to watch a movie, but my mum said I had to study and if I went, I was to be back by 6.30pm. So i figured I wouldn't go since I didn't think i would be able to be back by then. Ironically, Mr Bala asked me to go to the Hall for a 'brief' moment to take snapshots for IP open house TV media thing. That 'brief' moment ended up to be 3 over hours. Geez... I was so irritated.. I could have gone for the movie instead. I completed some maths. Wandered around school. Well.. I'll be on TV i guess.. Ha, I was supposed to talk, and suddenly smile at the camera. Sure felt weird. Yesterday was so so fun! I had OAC. =P First we assembled at Lavender MRT, then we did warm ups at the Sea Sports Club (SSC). Jogged and stopped to do pull-ups. We had to do 200 in total as a group. My goodness... HAha... Guys, jia you with your pull-ups ok?? Girls with support is counted as one. Guys with support counted as 1/3 a pullup. I think the seniors want to train up the guys. Must do OAC proud in the titans ok?? haha. After that was kayaking! We kayaked to East Coast. The trip there was ok... Thanks to those who waited for me. Heh.. I was slow... Once we got there, we ate standard lunch and then did some team bonding games. First, we attempted the dragon pumping.. Well, at least this time we got up for awhile! I think i fell too many times... I feel so bad.. =( I was at a funny angle, couldn't get Yan Ling's legs to rest properly without my arms giving way.. Okay... I'll train that up, don't want to let the others down again. Next team bonding game was... dog and bone! haha, our legs were all tied up together and then both teams struggled for the 'bone'. That was so funny! After the team bonding games, we went to Big Splash! The first time round, I could not go down quick enough. Make that couldn’t go down at all.. haha... I wonder what I did wrong.. 2nd round at least a little better~ Sadly.. After that we had to kayak back.. I felt so so tired when kayaking back and was struggling to keep the kayak going in a straight line. Just when we were almost reaching Kallang, a sea storm blew up. My goodness.. It was my most thrilling 'adventure' yet. I will recount the event in the next post. After the whole thing, I was so so tired.. My arms were worn out after the storm and I still had to rush for dance class. It was good. I still love it. The sad thing is that I'm burnt and radiating heat. Haha.. I must put more sunblock next time. We had a mother's day dinner at the Japanese restaurant where my Dance school was. When I got back home, my Dad got me a new phone!!! Haha, Thank you Dad!!! 6170! I'm waiting to learn how to use the media player... I shall ask my friends tomorrow. So... today, nothing much.. Went to the doctor, had tuition, went to my father's mother's place for mother's day lunch, came back, had a nap, revised maths, going to grandfather's place for dinner. All in all, I must say I love this weekend! Cheerios for now~ stay happy ^^

`+._ nEw LayOuT_.+`

hi =D Haha... today was projects day.. I felt so lazy.. but while waiting for Eugene to come, I decided to change the whole layout.. In the end, i managed to edit my blog to satisfaction finally after... 6 hrs... haha... thanks to Eugene for his help. Thanks to the designer of the original design too~ I'm not good enough to create a blog all on my own. Haha.. all comments are welcome. I really want to make this blog look nicer =D Seeyou all soon!!

`+._ fEeLiNg DoWn _.+`

Hi everyone... I guess now with such a hectic schedule going on, I would not have time to dwell on little little troubles that occur everyday. But when they all come together, I guess you can get a little depressed. I just really need to write this all out, but I don't feel like using my diary. I do not know why, but, I feel so troubled and there's this dead weight I can't seem to remove from my heart. I feel like crying it all out, but I can't seem to. If you people out there think this is about a boy, I wish it was so simple. Ever since I've came to TJC, I've been loving the life I've been living. No matter how busy I am, I still try to do my best. In TMS, my best was always good enough for me. However, now in TJC, I feel as though my best is no longer anywhere near good enough.. Compared to all those in the IP programme, I tend to always ask myself, 'Was I really good enough to get into this programme? How could it be?' The teachers say that failing is a normal thing right now, since we are still adjusting to the new system and college life. However, I still cannot see past what they say. My results haven't been at their best since I've come here, and concepts like Maths and Chemistry are extremely hard to absorb in. I feel so dumb sometimes when I can't understand things. I know it may sound as though I really dislike the IP programme. No, I don't. And I have no intention of quitting it either. I'm going to continue working hard at it till I succeed. Ever since my grandfather passed away, things have changed so much. Home is no longer like a retreat, it feels as though something is always missing. Whenever, my grandmother is around, her state always reminds me that my grandfather is no longer there. She never used to fuss about me as much as she does now. There are just some things in the family going on now that I really wish are going to be over with. OAC. I love it. It's one of the things now which helps me deal with all this nonesense going on. We have it almost 3-4 times a week and I love being around all my seniors. The only things is the time we end. My grandmother and mother are not happy about me coming home late. I shall not comment there. However, as much as I love OAC, there's still a thing in which I find seperating. The juniors are still 2 years older than me. I guess I still cannot really immerse myself into their conversations yet and sometimes I guess I kind of feel not together as one with them. I hope this feeling goes soon. Aside from that, OAC is the best thing in school to me right now. I will not quit it no matter what whoever says. It's at times like this when I really miss my friends in Temasek Secondary. I really want to meet up with them soon, but there's always no time.. I can't wait for the June trip to Bintan with Unick. I'll just stop here.. Phew, I got it all out, my heart feels a little lighter now, there's however still something which all teens worry about, I think that it's a really minor thing currently, so, another day =) See you all around ^^

`+._ tItAnS tRaInInG _.+`

Hi! I'm feeling so energized and fresh after a bath. Titans training for some reason was rather fun.. Tiring, but fun =D Geez, I've never ran so much at one go before... 5km... with backpack... haha.. my timing was so bad.. I took 52 + mins to run that distance! Then my head suddenly felt so light and every step i took, i felt like i was going to faint. I had to sit out on shuttle run to clear my head~ Next was situps... I was rather disappointed in myself though... Our target was 100 situps in 3 minutes.. I only did 96.. missed by 4!!! Oh well... I'm going to train till I can do 120. For squat thrusts, my results were rather pathetic... 27 in 3 minutes... for inclined pull-ups, even worse... 2 only!!! I wish the bar was higher, like the one is secondary school.. haha, things would be so much easier.. I had better train up for inclined pull-ups and squat thrusts... =D I don't know why, but as the days pass, I'm loving OAC more and more and more!! I really feel like part of the family now, and it's a great feeling. So friends who aren't in OAC, stop asking me why I'm so 'into' OAC, I seriously do not have an answer. I just really do like it! I especially love the Tower *grin* Well, after today's Titans session, I have been very motivated to train up and improve for some reason~ Anyway... I'll do my personal best and hope to at least get top 10... though that's really tough.. hey, I've got 3 more years =P haha, goodluck for the upcoming tests everyone!!! GoOdNiGhT!!! ^^

`+._ NeVeReNdInG _.+`

Geez... my school work seems to be never ending... after homework is complete, there are group projects, after one project, there is another, after that, there are tests.. I'm so dead... Oh well.. I'll try my best..~ Goodluck to all those who are having trouble coping too... nights everyone =) take care~

`+._GuEsS wHaT?!? =D _.+`

Hiii everyone!!! Im really so so sorry for not updating.. truly I am.. Haha, okay, since I have some time now, I shall update on all that has been going on.. About the Temasek Acadamy Student's Council elections, I didn't get in, phew, what a relief.. I don't think I would be able to cope.. The house function was kinda ok... I wish the atmosphere was livelier though..

And guess what else? DELTA WON CHEERLEADING!!!! All our practices were WORTH IT!!! For the week of the cheer competitions, we trained till about 10+ 11pm every night.. Geez.. I was so so tired.. However, through all this, we bonded as a team, and I miss everyone... =( And even better still, Delta won all 4 trophies!!! That was just an awesome day for us..

The next day, which was the 16th of April, I had actually scheduled a Harry Potter meetup, everything was planned nicely, when I found out that there was the Kayaking Course that weekend. Oh well, OAC is more important.. After Kayaking on Saturday, I went for Flamenco, and I was so dead tired.. My eyes were bloodshot and I had to wait for my mum's class to end till 10+pm.. I used my Flamenco skirt to cover my legs, and slept on the dance floor. My dance teacher, Angel, was so sweet.. He took another skirt and covered my upperbody and took 2 cushions for my head, such a caring and sweet teacher he is! These are the things that make me feel warm and happy inside. Sunday was another day of Kayaking, and I obtained my 1st Star in Kayaking! YAY =D The Year 1 Oacians went for dinner at bugis and I was literally falling asleep standing. Haha, the next day, I was like a zombie in class! Mr Lim also looked so tired (he was our kayaking instructor)

Tuesday was the TOWER!! yay!! I learnt how to set it up! I love the tower, it rocks! Wednesday was OAC training, and I was so worried that we would have to have Titans training, but we had camp craft instead. Geez, by the end of it, my hands stung and the skin felt like it was going to come out.. Ouch.. But it was still good.. Then thursday... HIPHOP!!! I miss it.. We are learning a new dance, there's so many twists and turns of the body, it's rather hard to master.. And I didn't go for lesson the previous week because of cheerleading, therefore I was a little behind the rest, but i still loved it. Finally, the day came which i could go home early.. FRIDAY! haha, wow, chances to go home early are really rare.. I watched abit of Gilmore Girls.. It's a really good series.

Okay, now to talk about today.. Let me see, we met at the sports complex at 8am, and set off for oreinteering. My goodness, we walked from bedok to newton. haha, my feet were aching... What I love most about OAC is that it's like one big family.. I really enjoy my friend's company in OAC.. Now that we practice so often, we have bonded closer, I love it! Now I look forward to OAC practices so so much... From bugis, I took the MRT to Queenstown for Flamenco.. The minute I had to do the Sepitiados (Leg Movements which include stamping on high heels), this flashed through my mind: "OH my GOodNESs.. This Hurts like crazy!!!". Haha, but I still love it and went through class, and now.. I can't walk without it hurting like crazy.. I hope it would recover overnight.. Oh well.. That's all I have to say today.. I'm so tired... Goodnight everyone! Sleep tight..