`+._ hmwk day _.+`

geez... i spent the whole day doing Language Arts hmwk... oh well.. I had my fair share of holidays!
i also spent about an hour on my new skin, hope you guys find it interesting ^^ all comments are welcome!
The song is from Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, an awesome musical I saw in London! =D

I'd just been blog reading, and I realized that most of my friends blogs seem to be so down, solem and upset. I wonder if it is a teenager thing. I guess we all do get down many a times in life, but for me, I try to look at the brighter side of things, although it may seem impossible, it is always better to be optimistic than pesimistic. Life is never easy, every family has it's own troubles, worries and problems. However, it is how you embrace your problems that makes the difference. Do not sigh about the things you do not have, instead, appreciate and enjoy the things you do have. You only get to live once, so live it to the fullest ^^After a hard day, instead of being moody and glum, cheer up and tell yourself, "hey, i've gotten through another day, it has been tough, but i made it!" and give yourself a pat on the back =) smile more as you never know what difference a smile can do to those around you. By smiling, you instantly brighten up the atmosphere and make people around you feel better. If you felt like you have done wrong and are dreading the next day, take the next day to be an opportunity to make things right instead of thinking, "oh no.. im so dead". Every little bit of optimism helps. There are many a times I go to bed with a heavy heart, be it the emotional sadness of things currently happening or being troubled with some matters, but the next day, I wake up and realize that it is not really that big of a deal, and my heart feels lighter once more. Some things like the death of a loved one would be extremely hard to enable one to be optimistic, but still, one can and should try. All i'm saying is that you should never let anything in life get you too down and depressed, it is unhealthy and would cause others who love and cherish you to be worried about you. Sometimes you feel as though no one cares about you, but in actual fact, someone does love you, your family, your friends, all care about you and cherish you. By smiling and being optimistic, you can light up your world and their world too.

Goodness.. I sound like some old woman talking about life.. haha, but seriously, life is too short to stay down in the dumps for too long. Live life! Embrace it! okay... now i sound like someone who is off the top. I shall stop here, before I start going on again, hope you guys will feel better soon ^^

`+._ Finally Updated_.+`

Phew, it has been a really tiring term 2 for me, with cheerleading, house com function, OAC and other stuff, my school work has suffered some negligence, studied hard for my tests though, hope that i did relatively well.

Well, Titans is over. I guess we all bonded really well together during Titans for some reason. No offence, but I was doing my best not for mainly Delta, but for OAC, to do OAC proud. Of course, I was also hoping to bring glory to Delta. Unfortunately, that didn't happen. Hm.. My 5 individual events record is: 5km run 24th out of 32 ppl ; incline pull-ups zero (how pathetic) ; squat thrusts 50 in 3mins (yay, i beat my previous best) ; sit-ups 97 in 3 mins ; shuttle run... hm... don't remember, all i know that it wasn't good =( . Oh well... if I can take part next year, I shall train, hopefully to get into top 10. After that, we had a OAC get together session outside the dance studio, with all the pass batch OAC seniors, they were all behind us, wanting to listen to our opinions, aha, that was rather intimidating. All of us got so emotional. It's then that I'm so so so sure that as long as the 05/06 batch is around, I'm not quitting OAC. They are my extended family! =D hm... whether I'll stay in OAC for all 4 years... hard to say. I shall not remain in it if I can't get on well with the next batches.

I remember I cried because I couldn't join my J1 seniors for June Camp. *sob* I was... I don't really know how to put it in words, but, it was kind of like, I was afraid that if I didn't go for camp with them, they would move on experiencing something so tough, and I won't fit in anymore, then, there will be no reason to stay in OAC. And I do cherish all my seniors alot =) Well, felt bad also for enjoying myself while my teammates were going to suffer, and I spent the first few days in UK during the Humanities Trip thinking about what they were doing at that time. I'm just glad they are all ok ^^

Hm.. about the UK trip, it was really great, the sites we went to and everything we saw was just so exhilarating and refreshing. Maybe one day when I have time, I'll put together a UK trip journal with all my pictures in it =D Aha, IF I have time. Geez, I wonder when that will be. Just in a summary, we went to so many places like Salisbury, Dorset, Stonehenge, Wells, Oxford, Bath, Shrewsbury and London. I watched 6 shows in London, 2 with the school and 4 with my dad. They were simply AMAZING. I watched 'The Lion King' musical and Shakespeare's Play 'As you Like It' with my school. And the musicals 'Chitty Chitty Bang Bang', 'The Phantom of the Opera', 'Mary Poppins' and the ballet 'Romeo and Juliet' with my dad. I loved Chitty best! I bought the soundtrack too! Haha, hey, what can I say, I still have a kid in me, don't we all? =D

The sad thing was that I missed Miss Lim's wedding. Congratulations Miss Lim! =D

Two days after I got back to Singapore, I went to Bintan with my Unick friends Zoe, Yuan Li, John, En Chou and Jun Ji. My mum and John's mum chaperoned us. Thank You! =D Well, I must say, I had high expectations for the trip and couldn't sleep till 4am in the morning. Sadly, I was rather disappointed at first, but things were looking up. The weather was wet on the first day, thankfully clearing up in the late afternoon. We couldn't check in until about 12pm+ Bintan time, and we reached at about 10am+. So we walked around. Once we got a room, 1129, we spend some time in there before heading to check out the Gym. Jun Ji, En Chou and I worked out for more than half an hour. I ran for 13 mins on the treadmill increasing the speed, then cycled 10 mins, 100 push-ups and 100 sit-ups. The workout really felt good. We went back to the room and played cards if I didn't remember wrongly. Just being there with my friends made me feel lucky and happy. It has been ages since I've seen them and I really missed them so so much! I really loved their company. Haha, short, fat, ugly, sian dan, xiong dan bao and hm.. we didn't settle on a name for yuan! =P We went swimming and played um... is it called water polo? It's like a game in the pool 1.5m deep with two soccer like nets at the end. It was so so fun! haha, it was tiring though. At night, we played cards and watched TV.

The next day, we had breakfast, loitered in Yuan and Oe's room in the morning before taking a very bumpy 45min drive to a small 'town'. I felt so sick, motion sickness. Well, there's nothing like that town in Singapore. There was nothing there to see, so we asked the driver to bring us somewhere else. Thank Goodness the other place was much nicer. I bought a ring! =D I love it! ^^ Haha~ We went back after bringing back some food from the restaurant. Had little to eat, and waited for En to finish his show before we went to the Gym. No one else wanted to though =( We first ran on the Treadmill for more the 20 mins, then I did 50 push-ups without resting, of course having breaks in push-up position, haha, not that good to do 50 at one go. I wish.. When I got up, My arms were strained. Geez, I'm so out of shape! I know I put on weight in UK with all my food intake! The amount I ate there was rather large... Did those umm pull bar down with arm things? 10 of them for fun. We cycled for about 5 mins, and wanted to do jogging, but... the gym was closing. Oh well, went back, took a shower, had maggie and played cards again! =P I learnt how to play Taiti. =D We all planned to sleep in the same room that night since it was the last night. Oe and yuan fell asleep first. The rest of us couldn't sleep. So talked a little before John suggested going for a walk. Haha, midnight stroll. We walked to the Lobby. I was practically half blind as I forgot to bring my glasses (geez, I keep forgetting stuff these days, not a good sign) and already took off my contacts. It was okay though, haha~ There was really nothing to do, so we played checkers using the Giant Chess Set. After that we slid down the banister (almost lost my balance, it was fun!) Got back to the room, finally could sleep after a long while, sadly, only after John left to go back to his room as it was too squeezy to possibly fall asleep. I must say it was a fun time.

So... Today morning, the weather was GREAT! We couldn't wake early, except Yuan and Oe, who awoke at 7am! Haha, they went for a stroll at the beach, came back, and we were still sleeping. They went for breakfast, waited for more than an hour before we joined them. Thanks for waiting! Heh~ Lazed around in the room before we started going nuts, stealing pillows from each other, jumping on the bed, grabbing blankets and throwing over one another and piling on top of one another. Ha! We kinda turned the room into a pig-sty. Then we left for a swim. Had drinks at the pool bar, but sadly, didn't have enough time for a tan. Oh well =) Went back and washed up before having to leave Bintan... Let's just say, out of this whole trip, I basically loved being with my friends so much~ Wish we could get together more often, sadly, I doubt it's possible. The boat ride was making me giddy again too~ We played Taiti again on the boat, the ride was so long ans the boat went so slowly, oh well.. we couldn't do anything about it! Love you guys Unick! Anyway, it's late now, so... goodnight! =D

`+._ Recount of the Kayaking experience in the Storm _.+`

We weren't initally near the rocks, but since the waves started up so quickly, we were all swept near the rocks. Being a weaker kayaker, I could paddle fast enough and guess what? I capsized. The grand senior and Mr Lim helped me back up; I kayaked a few times, and capsized again. This time, it was rather dangerous. I had completely no idea what to do and I thank goodness that Mr Lim was there. It was the first time I've seen Mr Lim panicking and looking so worried. He shouted through the wind for me to get to the left side of his boat, so I did. He tried to let me get back onto the kayak, but the waves were too strong, it was rather impossible. The rocks were about 2m away only, I was so scared I felt like crying, it was so freaky. Mr Lim manoeuvred his kayak to be perpendicular to the rocks and I was at the front of his kayak, he calmly said that we would be fine and that we had to wait for the storm to blow over before we could do anything. I guess seeing him calm made me compose myself. Though I must say, with the rocks being so near, I was really wondering whether I would survive that storm. I could feel the rocks beneath me and so I figured it would be better for me to walk up it when the waves pushed me nearer to the rocks, I'm so glad I felt the rocks beneath or I would have been cut. The luckiest thing is that there was no thunder and lightening, if there was, I would have been a gone case. After awhile Mr Lim said it would be okay to get back on even though the waves were rather strong and the rain still pelting down. I got back on, paddled like crazy and managed to get back! After the whole thing, it was a rather exciting experience. I learnt that in times like this, you have to keep calm in order to survive it, and you have to trust whoever is helping you. It was a most memorable experience yet, one I would not care to experience again, but I’m glad I went through it and got back unscathed. And I would like to thank Mr Lim and the Grand senior for safely helping me get through the whole adventure.

`+._ sO tIrEd.. _.+`

Hi all =D Well... Nothing much happened on Thursday.. The only thing is that I got a sore throat.. *complain*. Now I still have it.. I can't sing and it's kind of depressing. Friday, I wanted to go along with my seniors to watch a movie, but my mum said I had to study and if I went, I was to be back by 6.30pm. So i figured I wouldn't go since I didn't think i would be able to be back by then. Ironically, Mr Bala asked me to go to the Hall for a 'brief' moment to take snapshots for IP open house TV media thing. That 'brief' moment ended up to be 3 over hours. Geez... I was so irritated.. I could have gone for the movie instead. I completed some maths. Wandered around school. Well.. I'll be on TV i guess.. Ha, I was supposed to talk, and suddenly smile at the camera. Sure felt weird. Yesterday was so so fun! I had OAC. =P First we assembled at Lavender MRT, then we did warm ups at the Sea Sports Club (SSC). Jogged and stopped to do pull-ups. We had to do 200 in total as a group. My goodness... HAha... Guys, jia you with your pull-ups ok?? Girls with support is counted as one. Guys with support counted as 1/3 a pullup. I think the seniors want to train up the guys. Must do OAC proud in the titans ok?? haha. After that was kayaking! We kayaked to East Coast. The trip there was ok... Thanks to those who waited for me. Heh.. I was slow... Once we got there, we ate standard lunch and then did some team bonding games. First, we attempted the dragon pumping.. Well, at least this time we got up for awhile! I think i fell too many times... I feel so bad.. =( I was at a funny angle, couldn't get Yan Ling's legs to rest properly without my arms giving way.. Okay... I'll train that up, don't want to let the others down again. Next team bonding game was... dog and bone! haha, our legs were all tied up together and then both teams struggled for the 'bone'. That was so funny! After the team bonding games, we went to Big Splash! The first time round, I could not go down quick enough. Make that couldn’t go down at all.. haha... I wonder what I did wrong.. 2nd round at least a little better~ Sadly.. After that we had to kayak back.. I felt so so tired when kayaking back and was struggling to keep the kayak going in a straight line. Just when we were almost reaching Kallang, a sea storm blew up. My goodness.. It was my most thrilling 'adventure' yet. I will recount the event in the next post. After the whole thing, I was so so tired.. My arms were worn out after the storm and I still had to rush for dance class. It was good. I still love it. The sad thing is that I'm burnt and radiating heat. Haha.. I must put more sunblock next time. We had a mother's day dinner at the Japanese restaurant where my Dance school was. When I got back home, my Dad got me a new phone!!! Haha, Thank you Dad!!! 6170! I'm waiting to learn how to use the media player... I shall ask my friends tomorrow. So... today, nothing much.. Went to the doctor, had tuition, went to my father's mother's place for mother's day lunch, came back, had a nap, revised maths, going to grandfather's place for dinner. All in all, I must say I love this weekend! Cheerios for now~ stay happy ^^

`+._ nEw LayOuT_.+`

hi =D Haha... today was projects day.. I felt so lazy.. but while waiting for Eugene to come, I decided to change the whole layout.. In the end, i managed to edit my blog to satisfaction finally after... 6 hrs... haha... thanks to Eugene for his help. Thanks to the designer of the original design too~ I'm not good enough to create a blog all on my own. Haha.. all comments are welcome. I really want to make this blog look nicer =D Seeyou all soon!!

`+._ fEeLiNg DoWn _.+`

Hi everyone... I guess now with such a hectic schedule going on, I would not have time to dwell on little little troubles that occur everyday. But when they all come together, I guess you can get a little depressed. I just really need to write this all out, but I don't feel like using my diary. I do not know why, but, I feel so troubled and there's this dead weight I can't seem to remove from my heart. I feel like crying it all out, but I can't seem to. If you people out there think this is about a boy, I wish it was so simple. Ever since I've came to TJC, I've been loving the life I've been living. No matter how busy I am, I still try to do my best. In TMS, my best was always good enough for me. However, now in TJC, I feel as though my best is no longer anywhere near good enough.. Compared to all those in the IP programme, I tend to always ask myself, 'Was I really good enough to get into this programme? How could it be?' The teachers say that failing is a normal thing right now, since we are still adjusting to the new system and college life. However, I still cannot see past what they say. My results haven't been at their best since I've come here, and concepts like Maths and Chemistry are extremely hard to absorb in. I feel so dumb sometimes when I can't understand things. I know it may sound as though I really dislike the IP programme. No, I don't. And I have no intention of quitting it either. I'm going to continue working hard at it till I succeed. Ever since my grandfather passed away, things have changed so much. Home is no longer like a retreat, it feels as though something is always missing. Whenever, my grandmother is around, her state always reminds me that my grandfather is no longer there. She never used to fuss about me as much as she does now. There are just some things in the family going on now that I really wish are going to be over with. OAC. I love it. It's one of the things now which helps me deal with all this nonesense going on. We have it almost 3-4 times a week and I love being around all my seniors. The only things is the time we end. My grandmother and mother are not happy about me coming home late. I shall not comment there. However, as much as I love OAC, there's still a thing in which I find seperating. The juniors are still 2 years older than me. I guess I still cannot really immerse myself into their conversations yet and sometimes I guess I kind of feel not together as one with them. I hope this feeling goes soon. Aside from that, OAC is the best thing in school to me right now. I will not quit it no matter what whoever says. It's at times like this when I really miss my friends in Temasek Secondary. I really want to meet up with them soon, but there's always no time.. I can't wait for the June trip to Bintan with Unick. I'll just stop here.. Phew, I got it all out, my heart feels a little lighter now, there's however still something which all teens worry about, I think that it's a really minor thing currently, so, another day =) See you all around ^^

`+._ tItAnS tRaInInG _.+`

Hi! I'm feeling so energized and fresh after a bath. Titans training for some reason was rather fun.. Tiring, but fun =D Geez, I've never ran so much at one go before... 5km... with backpack... haha.. my timing was so bad.. I took 52 + mins to run that distance! Then my head suddenly felt so light and every step i took, i felt like i was going to faint. I had to sit out on shuttle run to clear my head~ Next was situps... I was rather disappointed in myself though... Our target was 100 situps in 3 minutes.. I only did 96.. missed by 4!!! Oh well... I'm going to train till I can do 120. For squat thrusts, my results were rather pathetic... 27 in 3 minutes... for inclined pull-ups, even worse... 2 only!!! I wish the bar was higher, like the one is secondary school.. haha, things would be so much easier.. I had better train up for inclined pull-ups and squat thrusts... =D I don't know why, but as the days pass, I'm loving OAC more and more and more!! I really feel like part of the family now, and it's a great feeling. So friends who aren't in OAC, stop asking me why I'm so 'into' OAC, I seriously do not have an answer. I just really do like it! I especially love the Tower *grin* Well, after today's Titans session, I have been very motivated to train up and improve for some reason~ Anyway... I'll do my personal best and hope to at least get top 10... though that's really tough.. hey, I've got 3 more years =P haha, goodluck for the upcoming tests everyone!!! GoOdNiGhT!!! ^^