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So sorry everyone, heh, I've been super busy..
Let me just list out the things i've been busy with, i really don't have time for writing long detailed posts =P

* Temasek Acadamy Student Council Nominations
-Mass Dance Practices
-Hustings
-Introductions

* House Committee Internship: planning for annual house function
-Decorations committee

*Cheerleading
-Competitions coming up this friday in my school!!! All who can come to support please do ya??? THANKS!!! Support DELTA! (our house name) It's definately a competition worth seeing =P It's like those Bring it On competitions, though of course, our stunts aren't as complicated as theirs.

Hm.. all add up? I've been coming back at 8+pm at night, and, sleeping past midnight... 4+hours of sleep everyday.. Geez, Thank Goodness I can rest after the cheer competitions, Council Nominations is over, House function is over! Thanks again to Ryan for coming to perform for us! You were great!

Upcoming week's timetable =

Cheerleading:
Monday --> 4 - 9 pm
Tuesday --> 6 - 10 pm
Wednesday --> OAC
Thursday --> 4 - quite late pm =P

Haha, great, and I have a Chem test on Friday.. I'm so dead.. Oh well...
No matter what, I still love my life now, no matter how busy it is, i feel it is rather productive... I'll post a more indepth entry another day~ seriously, I need to start on my homework, haha, see you! Take care all! =D

HoLiDaYs!!!

Hi everyone! ^^ I'm so sorry for not blogging for the whole of last week. Thanks to all my friends who wished me happy birthday on the actual day =D Love you all! I'm so glad last week is over, it was mentally exhausting to me. Ha, that was the first time I had to study for a test on my birthday, wonderful. We went to have sushi at esplande for dinner though, that was nice. I bought the Harry Potter time-turner, the even more intricate and original one, one from the noble collection. I exhanged with them the previous one. Thanks to mum for the time-turner!!! We had our electives and as usual last week, ended early, but we couldn't leave until 12pm and as we had tests in the afternoon, we couldn't go back home early either. I found last week so stressful, the tests.. I guess this is the result of being the pioneer IP batch, everything is rather messy. We don't even understand the topics properly. Hopefully, they will do something to change it. Last Friday and Saturday, TJC had Temasek Idol, and TMS has Music is it!. Haha, they are both about the same thing, both are talent competitions. I saw 3 outstanding performances I must comment on though, Charles performed in Temasek Idol, beatboxing and singing at the same time. AWESOME. However, Ryan was just as good as him! Aimran sang beautifully too. Gosh, those 2 days were tiring for me for some reason, though the getting ready for those functions was really fun! Haha. Sunday... I went to buy new running shoes and... Went for DISNEY ON ICE!!! It was fabulous. Amazing. Incredible. Awesome. Yeah yeah, I know it's a kiddy show, my parents were teasing me about that, but hey! I like Disney. It was 7 of the Princess fairy tales performed. One exerpt from each show. Awesome. And the male skaters (Prince Charmings) were really good looking! Haha. They all skated brilliantly. I'm in awe of them. The ability to skate and glide so gracefully across the ice and even do stunts in the air. When the girls twirled, their skirts flared out beautifully. What's more, it was oh so romantic... Couple by couple danced... So nice... At the end when all the couples were to come out, they were all dressed in champagne, white and gold colours. Wow. It was incredibly beautiful... I loved it. Monday... Hm... Oh yes, I started watching this Korean Drama called 'Huang Tai Zi and Chu Lian'. I slept at 2.30am trying to rush the story, but couldn't finish it and had to go to sleep.. I went to ICA today to apply for my IC. Yay, I'm getting my IC ^^ I better not lose it.. Haha~ I went back to my grandmothers house and continued the Korean Drama, had to go for tuition in between and then finally managed to finish the show at 6+pm. It was a dumb ending. Dumb. That kind of ending is just absolutely not possible in real life. Even my mother agrees. Grrrr. Oh well, as long as I imagine the other couple to be together, who cares. The pair that ended up together is just so... wrong. Something weird happened, the story wasn't well-written. *sigh* Good dramas should have believable endings. Anyway, I'm so tired... Going to bed soon. Goodnight! =D

My Birthday Party: Fun, Sun and Sea!

Hi everyone!!! Today was very fun! I had my Birthday party. I went to East Coast earlier with John and Jun Ji to blade and cycle before meeting the rest. It felt great to get back to blading. Though I wasn't really good. I don't even know how to stop. I can only blade on level gounds. It was still fun. John and I bladed and Jun Ji cycled to Bedok Jetty from MacDonalds. The view from the jetty was real nice.. We should go more often! Haha. Around 4+pm, the others came. At first, I was kind of worried cause everyone was so quiet... Not mingling. Then after cutting the cake, some of us went into the sea, some stayed near the sea and a certain couple *hint* disappeared for awhile =P haha. Oh ya. Thanks ALOT for the presents guys. Thanks to Zoe, Yuan, Cad, John, JJ, Lee, En and Kang for the soft toy and card. The soft toy is sooooo cute!!! It is currently sitting and looking at me ^^ Thanks to Justin for the sand art and thanks to Lumpy and Kirby for the bottle! We played in the sea up till about 6+pm, then went for dinner. By that time, only Yuan, Lumpy, Jun Ji, Lee Keat and Justin were left. Haha, for some reason, Justin couldn't stop talking nonesense the whole day! But I'm glad for that, it created the fun atmosphere. Thanks alot boon ^^ After dinner, we went back to the beach, lay out the mat and stared at the stars and talked. It was so fun!!! Then Justin and Lee Keat did some breakdance moves, so cool! I couldn't dance properly on the sand though. We played music and sang along, moved to the beat till about 10pm. We didn't feel like going home, but... My dad picked us up to send us home. Surprisingly, he gave us all his coins to go and have dessert!!! Thank you Dad!!! We ate till about 11pm and all went home. It was so so fun today, I hope everyone enjoyed themselves as much as I did!!! Thanks alot to mum and dad for helping me organise this birthday!! Love you guys!!! Goodnight!

Drained emotionally

Hi again everyone ^^ Well, today was... Quite tough for me. My grandfather's 49 days prayer send off was today and everything reminded me of him. Lots of tears were shed. Then I went back to school at around 6+pm to watch the Gamma House hiphop thing. I guess I went too early. I met John to pass him something, and ended up showing him my school, walking aimlessly. It's funny how some people can just talk to you or you just talk to them, even about everyday stuff, and you get cheered up, I guess it takes your mind away from the pain. Thanks alot John, haha, you unknowingly made me feel better. I guess a teenager's life is full of roller coasters, but in a way, it's a journey I'm glad to be going through. It's the experience that I find makes me more matured every time. I decided to go back to my grandmother's house for dinner before heading back for the performance. At my grandmother's house, I broke down. I went to the toilet to cry. The house reminds me so much of him. Every part of it. I couldn't imagine not seeing him do the normal everyday things he did and giving me warm hugs or telling me how proud he is of me. My relatives all say that he loved me the most, and that I was worth his love. Everytime they say that, tears fall. I miss him so much. I wish he could have lived for 5 more years. It was not his time... He was so healthy.. ='( Oh well, enough of this wishing. Nothing I do now can bring him back. I just have to face it. I went back to school around 9pm and watched the hiphop/band performance. It was quite cool. I didn't know I had schoolmates who could dance hiphop and breakdance so well. I was quite impressed. Though I felt the odd one out, my friends didn't come along, it was still enjoyable. Well, going to east coast earlier tomorrow before my party to blade/cycle with John and Jun Ji. I'll update more tomorrow then! Goodnight!~

Moving On

Hi everyone ^^ Sorry I haven't updated here for more than a month. I updated on my xanga site in February though. I hope you guys like the new layout of my homepage and this page, I spent 2 days re-doing it! Haha.. Anyway, life has been the roughest I have ever gone through recently, the decease of my Grandfather, the type of emotional control I had to establish and learn to live with, the disagreements between generations now that we are living under one roof for the time being. It is so suffocating. I know that there is more change in my life for me to come in the near future, I have a gut feeling about it. I just got to learn to accept it and face it. Recently in school, we have been studying a Literature book called, The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Well, the book itself is very entertaining, however, it is also a very complex text. It makes me wonder whether the authors are purposely writing all those things to make us think so hard, or that they were simply innocently writing an imaginative story. Haha. The book discussed the Human Nature. Are we innately good or evil? Even I don't know about that myself. People show the part of them that they want the people around them to have an impression, an impression that that is who they are. But are they really? I'm quite sure we each know who are we, in a sense, who is our individual, but who is our self? There is a beast within every man that can explode out. It just relies on the situation and how the society one lives in shapes the person. Okay, enough of that. So far, I must say that the workload for us is quite heavy, I rarely have time to myself and come home late almost everyday, it's so tiring... Oh well.. Projects, tests, assignments, Geez. The amusing thing is, the teacher decided to be nice to us, therefore they postponed the test. And since all the teachers were kind, the tests are all at the last two weeks, haha. Anyway, we are having electives week now, and I'm studying Sci-fiction and fantasy. It rocks! Haha~ But it is freaky to know what our world would become like if robots took over the world. It is extremely daunting and disturbing. We watched Animatrix today. Gosh, it was so disturbing, using humans as a source of their power. *shudder* And so far all the fantasy and sci-fi movies Mr Tan has shown us all consists of war, killing, blood here and there, swords, shields, piercing the human skin. *ouch* I looked through my fingers for those scenes. Geez. I love Harry Potter so much more. At least when they kill, you are still whole. The Avada Kedavra curse takes the life out of you, but does not slice you up. We learnt the definations and all that for sci-fi and fantasy, it's really interesting. And now, OAC, or rather, Outdoor Activities Club, my PDP aka CCA. I love it loads, looks forward to every training, but Oh my God, it is so tough. I still can't believe I trekked from Bukit Timah Nature Reserve to MacRitchie Reservior, 11km. I wonder how I survived it with 5 1.5litre bottles in my bag after climbing the hill twice. But we had to train for the overseas trip to Kalantan in March, I'm not going, but my seniors are. Yesterday's training was tough, we carried army bags with a sandbag and 2 water bottles in it, ran to the HDB flats opposite and climb the stairs. 24 storeys. First time, my timing was 7.49 min, 2nd time was 7.32 min. I am so glad about my timing. Though sorry to my partner, held him back so much. Heh. While we were waiting, we did push-ups, sit-ups, squats, burpees and jumping jacks. So many of them, more than I've ever done in my life. Ha, since I started OAC, there have never been one day in which my body doesn't ache. But I still love it. I hope the JC1s won't quit or leave the school =( I like all of my seniors loads ^^ The JC2 seniors are really strict with us during training, but I guess there is a need for that. I still have fun =P After the stairs training, we washed up the bags and played basketball! Some of the JC2 seniors joined us, as well as our teacher-in-charge, Mr Lim. There were lots of laughs. Then came the punishment, I couldn't breathe properly, that is scary, the 2nd time already. I have never experienced that before I joined OAC. But I'm NOT quitting, I like it too much! =D haha, who would have guessed that I would be in this kind of CCA in JC. I would have laughed at you if you told me that last year. Ha. Okay, I don't think I have anything else to say. I'll try to update more often, but JC life is so busy, no time. Haha, Cheerios all! =)

*note* apologies to those who thought I was using Christ as a swear word. Didn't mean it in that way at all.

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Hi all.. Sorry I haven't been updating.. Well, my grandfather passed away on Saturday. I was heartbroken. He brought me up since young and we saw each other everyday. He was such a big part of my life... It pains me to finally say goodbye to him. But now I have learnt to accept it and keep him in my heart, but i miss him so so so much... I can still imagine him doing what he usually does.. Thanks goodness my memories of him now are of all the good times we shared before he got ill. Even up to now, his death still feels surreal to me. It's like I expect him to walk into the room and say, 'ah sian ah, bang wo ying ze ge ke yi ma?' I feel like crying everytime. Everywhere holds his memories. He thought me how to do so many things and loved me unconditionally. He used to bring me around to so many places, school, the library, shopping centres, food courts, market. Such a big part of my life has gone. But at least he is not suffering now... Even as I'm typing, tears are falling, I miss him so much... Life will never be the same, but I'll have to start anew and accept it. This is a first time experience and eye opener for me.. Today we went to collect his ashes. What an experience.. His bones were brown on the inside due to cancer. The sending of and collecting of ahses today were painful, but not as painful as the day he passed away. I miss him and will always remember him and love him. Ah Kong, Wo Ai Ni .

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Hi! The last time I updated was on Monday if i'm not wrong. Lots have happened since then, especially on the design of the classroom. The second day of the workshop we went to this place called SOHO (small office, home office) to get design ideas. The show flats were GORGEOUS. I loved it, so did my classmates. It was soooo cool. Since it was a office plus home, the bed was on a raised platform, like attic style (have pics in my xanga site), so awesome!!! But the discussion was hell. The whole class couldn't come to an agreement on what we should have done. I lost my voice then. -.- So sad, now I'm having both cough and sore throat. For some reason, I get cough so often, it's so sickening. Finally when some people left, and only a few remained, we came to the concept we liked to call, the treehouse concept. We wanted to make the class as homely and comfortable as possible. We were going to paint the back walls from dark green to light green, the right and left side wall in stripes in different shades of brown for the top part, and dark wood for the bottom part. The front where the whiteboard was would be the colour called "just peachy". The floors were a major issue, we wanted linoleum flooring, but it would cost about $1,800. That was alllooottt. About 9000 HK. The budget went waaay overcost, so we settle with painting the floor, though we didn't really like the idea. The next day we went to IKEA. Scouted for affordable yet condusive furniture, but we weren't given much time, so everything was very rushed. Once we went back, we started on making the mock-up version of how our classroom would be like (pics in xanga). We worked till 7pm. Today, we worked on our mock-up classroom once again till about 11.30am. I was in-charge of mock-up, so we concentrated on that. I'm quite proud to say that my team mates did a good job, I'm proud of what we accomplished. At around 1.10pm, the presentations for all 5 classes to present their idea for the class was held. Let's just say I didnt know where to hide my face for my group's presentation. We were hoping that the mock-up presentation would give us time to let those who know the mock-up settings to explain it. Sadly, we were only given 5 minutes, we couldn't present anything!!! =( In the end, we just got consolation prize. The group whose seating arrangements were in a huge X formation won. That group was soooo sucking up to the judges, we were revolted. But looks like it helped them win. Personally, we all preferred our classroom. I guess it's a definate. We suited the class to how the people in the class would like it. I still love our class the best. While the judges were deciding on the results, we were to go and see our PDPs(co-curricular-activities). I signed up for Dance, Outdoor Activities Club(OAC) and Astronomy Club. Our teacher recommends only 1 PDP though... I think I'll go for OAC, it's the most interesting. Hiking, climbing mountains, kayaking, interacting with nature, oh bliss!!! ^^ Hopefully I can also take up astronomy... It's on Friday nights(groan, no going out)... Oh well, see first!!! =) These few days besides the class design thing has been a very emotional rollercoaster for me. Some people will know what I mean. Let's just say a relative is sick. I've been crying so much my eyes get puffy and sore in the mornings. But life must go on, I have to be strong. I'll end here, check out the pictures in my xanga web!! ^^